Summer has been overwhelmingly busy for me. I've done so much that it doesn't even feel like it is still May. For once, summer isn't dragging on. The first Thursday since my return, and every Thursday following, Jarred and I have traveled to Gainesville to go to a club and watch a drag show. The first Thursday I went, a guy was kind of checking me out and I'm kind of disappointed I didn't actually go and talk to him. Oh well. I haven't seen him since and if I had gone and talked to him then I probably wouldn't have had the chance to meet Chris P. the next Thursday. Well, we didn't actually meet that Thursday but we danced and he asked to take a picture with me. I didn't find out his name until after when his friend kind of drunkinly walked up to us asked if we were single and gave us his name. So the next day I looked him up on Myspace and Facebook and I wasn't going to add him but I read his profile and discovered that we really had a lot in common. We chatted some on Facebook and I started falling for him. He ended up staying the night that Tuesday and I introduced him to Legally Blonde the Musical. Nothing happened except when he left he pecked me twice on the lips. It was magical.
The next Thursday, Jarred and I decided to go early to Gainesville to hang out with Chris and his friends before going to the club. Chris was late getting to his own house because he had to take his friend home and this upset Jarred. I convinced Jarred that things would get better and that did. I stayed with Chris Thursday and Friday night and he took me home on Saturday. Thursday night we had a really wonderful make-out session. Friday, Chris and I went to his family's house (about 45 minutes away) to do some work, picked up his sister, picked up his friend (who lives in the same city), took his friend to a church, went back to Chris' house, back to the church to pick up his friend and then to see Prince Caspian. It was a really long day. When we got back, we played some Cranium and then went to Chris' room so he and his friend could watch videos on YouTube. I'll admit I was kind of upset and jealous that he spent more time on his friend when he sees her all of the time. Finally, after several hours, I had a chance to talk to him about it even though I knew I shouldn't have but things immediately got better. I certainly don't have a good record with relationships and I didn't want another to fail over something petty before it even got started.
He took his friend, his sister and me home the next day. We talked quite a bit on the way home. It was, after all, a two hour drive. When he got to my place, we napped and cuddled for a bit and then sadly it was time for him to go. I missed him before he even pulled out of my yard. I watched him pull away and he didn't get very far before he stopped in the road. I had no idea what he was doing but there was a turtle in the road and he stopped to take a picture. So, we said our good-byes again and somehow that event made me miss him less. I certainly didn't mind missing him less because it really does hurt to miss someone. I really do like him and I really do hope it progresses farther.
Well, other than Gainesville, Joanna and I went to Panama City for my cousin's wedding the Saturday and Sunday after my second Gainesville trip. I thought it would have been really awkward seeing that side of the family again after so long but everyone really had a good time. Everyone was so excited to finally see me again. Then, that Sunday night I stayed with Jarred. Woke up early the next morning so Maggie and I could drive to Auburn for a night to visit one of her friends. It was a very eventful week. And then the next Monday, two days after Chris left my house, I spent the whole day at Suwannee with my mom, Aunt Margo and her family. It was quite fun. Other than those trips, I've mostly been lounging and hanging out with friends and such. This has probably been, so far, one of the best summers of my life and it's not even 1/3 over yet. <3
Tuesday, May 27, 2008
Tuesday, May 6, 2008
End of Semester, Beginning of Summer
I don't think there could have been a better way to end a semester. My first year of college was pretty much amazing and I loved 99.9% of it. Friday, Emily's friend Stephanie came into town and so of course we had to go out. I was planning on going out with Jenna, Natalie and Lily but I hadn't seen Stephanie since Christmas so I went out with them. We went to the Level and when we arrived there was absolutely no one there. It was kind of sad. Stephanie, being Morman, is sheltered from many things such as clubs, dancing, and caffeine. It got better after a while and Stephanie said she really enjoyed herself.
I can't really remember Saturday so I imagine I did a whole bunch of nothing. I watched Jumper some time during the day. Caleb and I had been planning to go to Blur together with Ali for some time but, of course, when the time came, Ali backed out. I didn't want to go downtown alone so I decided to stay in and watch August Rush. I got to thinking more and more about going downtown because it would be the last night I was able. Caleb texted me and told me that he wasn't even going out now because he was going to stay in with Joey. I see this being a major problem in the future. Daniel was at Blur though so I thought that if I went I would still have someone to hang out with. Jenna then texted me telling me they were at the Loft so I decided to go out anyways. I went to the Loft for about 10 minutes but I couldn't find anyone I knew so I walked to Blur. I hung out with Daniel H. and his friends Ryan P. and Ashley. They were fun. Afterwards, we went to McDonalds then bed.
Sunday, Daniel, Ryan and I were going to go to East-West Bistro for brunch and to see Ashley at work but when we got there, we decided it was too expensive and we didn't see Ashley there anyways. We decided to go to 5 Star Cafe instead. I ordered these HUGE blueberry pancakes. They were soo good. After that, I kind of invited myself over to Daniel's house to see his cat while he got his stuff together to go study. I asked him if I could stay the night because my room had nothing in it since I had to be out the next morning. I then went back to my room and slept for about five hours. I woke up, got food and then watched The Golden Compass. After this I decided to head on over to Daniel's house even though he was still in the SLC studying. I called him and he said he'd be back in an hour. So I studied at his place for about two hours and he still wasn't back so I decided to go to bed in his bed. He got back after midnight, I think closer to one or after, and went to bed because he had to be up at 5 30 to finish studying for his final at 8.
Just as a side note, I met Daniel when I was a junior in high school and I have liked him ever since. He was with Dustin B. at the time and I couldn't understand why. Dustin wasn't good enough for him. But at the end of the year Daniel left for UGA and he kind of just ignored me for a long time. He then started dating Chase which kind of broke my heart. A year later, I arrive at UGA and I try again to hang out with Daniel, much to no avail. I'd see him around and we'd say our heys but that was it. Finally, kind of ironically, but with the opening of the new gay club we had a chance to hang out. We finally had mutual friends. Also, maybe about a month ago he had broken up with Chase. When we hung out Saturday, he apologized for what happened and we were friends again. It made me so happy.
So, back to Sunday, I was in his bed with him. It makes me sound selfish but I was almost angry that he didn't cuddle with me. But I made the best of it attempted to sleep to the sounds of his cat mewing. After some time, I couldn't believe it, he put his arm around me! It made me feel amazing. After cuddling for some time, he rolled over and I really couldn't interpret this action. Did he want me to put my arm around him? Was he done with me? I didn't know, so yet again I made the best of it and tried to go to sleep. But, not much longer, he rolled back over and put his arm around me. He then started feeling me up and some groping followed. Which I absolutely did not mind. A little later he then rolled over but this time I knew. I started to scratch his back and then started rubbing my hands on his back and stomach. I then began to feel around his member. He then rolled over and started feeling mine again. We then started to make out and he pulled me on top of him. We made out some more and I started to make my way down his body. I couldn't believe what I was doing. I don't know what was going through my head but I knew I was about to give my first blow job. It was so weird. I became really giddy and had to stop myself from laughing several times. His body started to lose control and I knew he was close. I pulled away and after we cleaned up he started to go down on me. But all I could think about was how successful my first blow job was. It was so silly. I couldn't stop smiling and laughing. Needless to say, the mood was kind of gone so we just went to bed.
The next morning, actually about an hour later, Daniel woke up and went to the SLC to finish studying. He hugged me good bye and kissed me on the neck. I then woke up an hour or so later and went to take my final, which was supposed to take three hours but only took thirty minutes. Every time I thought about the previous night I couldn't help getting a little giddy. I had to wait until 11 30 so I could check out of my hall. So I went back to Daniel's house and started to watch Love Actually. After check-out I went back to his place finished watching and then went to his work so I could tell him good bye. I then proceeded to drive four hours back to Valdosta. It wasn't so bad. When I got back I texted Daniel and he said he wanted me to come back. It was so sweet :)
Not long after, Jarred asked me to meet him at Starbucks. After that we ate at Moe's. He has a new job as the make-up artist at Sublime. He had to learn about the colors and everything so I decided to help him. We went back to his house and played with the make-up some then watched Awake. We then went to bed. Everytime I return to Valdosta I'm so afraid that either Jarred or I have changed and that we won't be friends anymore for some reason. But I'm so glad everytime to see that we both have indeed changed but our friendship never dies.
Today I had an eye appointment and I'm so glad to see the professionals can't do their job. I know for a fact my eyes are getting worse but they don't seem to think so... Maybe they aren't. I don't know. I just want perfect vision :(. After my appointment, I went to Lauren's house and hung out with her and Arie, her daughter. She's sooo adorable. She's walking now. We watched Balls of Fury and then I took her to Zaxby's. We went back to her house for some time and now I'm back home. Yay Valdosta!
I can't really remember Saturday so I imagine I did a whole bunch of nothing. I watched Jumper some time during the day. Caleb and I had been planning to go to Blur together with Ali for some time but, of course, when the time came, Ali backed out. I didn't want to go downtown alone so I decided to stay in and watch August Rush. I got to thinking more and more about going downtown because it would be the last night I was able. Caleb texted me and told me that he wasn't even going out now because he was going to stay in with Joey. I see this being a major problem in the future. Daniel was at Blur though so I thought that if I went I would still have someone to hang out with. Jenna then texted me telling me they were at the Loft so I decided to go out anyways. I went to the Loft for about 10 minutes but I couldn't find anyone I knew so I walked to Blur. I hung out with Daniel H. and his friends Ryan P. and Ashley. They were fun. Afterwards, we went to McDonalds then bed.
Sunday, Daniel, Ryan and I were going to go to East-West Bistro for brunch and to see Ashley at work but when we got there, we decided it was too expensive and we didn't see Ashley there anyways. We decided to go to 5 Star Cafe instead. I ordered these HUGE blueberry pancakes. They were soo good. After that, I kind of invited myself over to Daniel's house to see his cat while he got his stuff together to go study. I asked him if I could stay the night because my room had nothing in it since I had to be out the next morning. I then went back to my room and slept for about five hours. I woke up, got food and then watched The Golden Compass. After this I decided to head on over to Daniel's house even though he was still in the SLC studying. I called him and he said he'd be back in an hour. So I studied at his place for about two hours and he still wasn't back so I decided to go to bed in his bed. He got back after midnight, I think closer to one or after, and went to bed because he had to be up at 5 30 to finish studying for his final at 8.
Just as a side note, I met Daniel when I was a junior in high school and I have liked him ever since. He was with Dustin B. at the time and I couldn't understand why. Dustin wasn't good enough for him. But at the end of the year Daniel left for UGA and he kind of just ignored me for a long time. He then started dating Chase which kind of broke my heart. A year later, I arrive at UGA and I try again to hang out with Daniel, much to no avail. I'd see him around and we'd say our heys but that was it. Finally, kind of ironically, but with the opening of the new gay club we had a chance to hang out. We finally had mutual friends. Also, maybe about a month ago he had broken up with Chase. When we hung out Saturday, he apologized for what happened and we were friends again. It made me so happy.
So, back to Sunday, I was in his bed with him. It makes me sound selfish but I was almost angry that he didn't cuddle with me. But I made the best of it attempted to sleep to the sounds of his cat mewing. After some time, I couldn't believe it, he put his arm around me! It made me feel amazing. After cuddling for some time, he rolled over and I really couldn't interpret this action. Did he want me to put my arm around him? Was he done with me? I didn't know, so yet again I made the best of it and tried to go to sleep. But, not much longer, he rolled back over and put his arm around me. He then started feeling me up and some groping followed. Which I absolutely did not mind. A little later he then rolled over but this time I knew. I started to scratch his back and then started rubbing my hands on his back and stomach. I then began to feel around his member. He then rolled over and started feeling mine again. We then started to make out and he pulled me on top of him. We made out some more and I started to make my way down his body. I couldn't believe what I was doing. I don't know what was going through my head but I knew I was about to give my first blow job. It was so weird. I became really giddy and had to stop myself from laughing several times. His body started to lose control and I knew he was close. I pulled away and after we cleaned up he started to go down on me. But all I could think about was how successful my first blow job was. It was so silly. I couldn't stop smiling and laughing. Needless to say, the mood was kind of gone so we just went to bed.
The next morning, actually about an hour later, Daniel woke up and went to the SLC to finish studying. He hugged me good bye and kissed me on the neck. I then woke up an hour or so later and went to take my final, which was supposed to take three hours but only took thirty minutes. Every time I thought about the previous night I couldn't help getting a little giddy. I had to wait until 11 30 so I could check out of my hall. So I went back to Daniel's house and started to watch Love Actually. After check-out I went back to his place finished watching and then went to his work so I could tell him good bye. I then proceeded to drive four hours back to Valdosta. It wasn't so bad. When I got back I texted Daniel and he said he wanted me to come back. It was so sweet :)
Not long after, Jarred asked me to meet him at Starbucks. After that we ate at Moe's. He has a new job as the make-up artist at Sublime. He had to learn about the colors and everything so I decided to help him. We went back to his house and played with the make-up some then watched Awake. We then went to bed. Everytime I return to Valdosta I'm so afraid that either Jarred or I have changed and that we won't be friends anymore for some reason. But I'm so glad everytime to see that we both have indeed changed but our friendship never dies.
Today I had an eye appointment and I'm so glad to see the professionals can't do their job. I know for a fact my eyes are getting worse but they don't seem to think so... Maybe they aren't. I don't know. I just want perfect vision :(. After my appointment, I went to Lauren's house and hung out with her and Arie, her daughter. She's sooo adorable. She's walking now. We watched Balls of Fury and then I took her to Zaxby's. We went back to her house for some time and now I'm back home. Yay Valdosta!
Wednesday, April 30, 2008
Finals Time
Monday marked our last day of classes. So, what else would college students do but celebrate. And celebrate we did! Monday was also Matt's birthday party so we had been planning an end of semester/end of year/Matt's birthday blow out for several weeks. It really was quite a fun party. The cops showed up and drama followed. No one was arrested and no one was even going to be. But the party was stopped by the person whose place we were at. So a lot of people got pretty annoyed and left and some of us went to someone else's place to continue the party. I think the second party was more fun. Everyone was definitely more relaxed. We played Twister and then we danced for quite some time. Then we played Strip Rock Band (don't ask). People were hooking up. It was great! We finally left at about 4 45 and I didn't go to sleep until about 5 30. What a great way to end a semester :)
Monday night and all day Tuesday were basically spent with Jenna, who, by the way, is absolutely amazing! We had lunch together Tuesday and then just chilled on the quad for a bit. We had some pretty nice discussions about everything. Lily joined us on the quad after a while. Needless to say, it was just a nice, relaxing day. I should have been studying but who cares?
Which brings me to having my first final at 8 am this morning. Biology. Blah. I don't think it went too bad. I don't think I made an A on it though. I probably could have studied more for it but I feel as if it really wouldn't have helped much. The questions I know for a fact I didn't know were basically just too random or very technical. I have a French final tonight which I think won't be too bad. It's the only class I feel as if I can make an A in and I definitely have to because if I don't make an A in one class then I lose HOPE. I think I'll be alright though. The final is going to be just like every other test we've taken and I've made A's on all of those but two. One of the ones I didn't make an A on I didn't study for and it was still only an 85. No big.
Monday night and all day Tuesday were basically spent with Jenna, who, by the way, is absolutely amazing! We had lunch together Tuesday and then just chilled on the quad for a bit. We had some pretty nice discussions about everything. Lily joined us on the quad after a while. Needless to say, it was just a nice, relaxing day. I should have been studying but who cares?
Which brings me to having my first final at 8 am this morning. Biology. Blah. I don't think it went too bad. I don't think I made an A on it though. I probably could have studied more for it but I feel as if it really wouldn't have helped much. The questions I know for a fact I didn't know were basically just too random or very technical. I have a French final tonight which I think won't be too bad. It's the only class I feel as if I can make an A in and I definitely have to because if I don't make an A in one class then I lose HOPE. I think I'll be alright though. The final is going to be just like every other test we've taken and I've made A's on all of those but two. One of the ones I didn't make an A on I didn't study for and it was still only an 85. No big.
Saturday, April 26, 2008
Busy Busy Week
This week has been sooo eventful. I don't remember much of the details but Tuesday we had our last Homecoming meeting of the semester (sadness) and then after that I helped (well I say helped but I basically did it all) my friend with his French project and paper. Wednesday, I went to my friend Ben's quartet, a Relay for Life meeting, and then watched Cloverfield on the Myers quad. After all that, I still somehow had time to finish my friend's French project and then start and finish another's project and paper. Thursday was a day filled with Gymnastics. I woke up, ate, (skipped class) went to Session I of the Team Prelims for the NCAA Championships, ate, ran to Biology because I forgot to turn in a paper, rested, Gymnastics, ate, tried to study for a test I had not studied for that was the next day and then I slept. I ended up making a 32/40 on the test which isn't so bad.
Friday night was amazing though! I went to the NCAA Championships and had sooo much fun. The guy behind me was extremely annoying because he acted like he knew everything about the sport and he really didn't but he wouldn't stop talking about point deductions and stupid shit. My friends and I wanted to punch him. A lot. We ended up taking the gold (duh). Fourth year in a row :D After that I went to Relay for Life for about an hour and then Lily picked me up and Lily, Josh, Matt and I watched "Stick It." I love that movie. Then Lily took me to Josh's house and we hung out for a bit. Ordered food and cleaned up Mikey's mess from his major party. I then got on Facebook and the most amazing thing happened -- Ryan F. started a conversation with me. We were never on bad terms but I'm really glad we're talking again. He explained why he stopped talking to me and we really had a heart to heart. He invited me over so of course I went. We hung out for a bit but then he got into the shower. Chelsea came over about 5 am (while Ryan was still in the shower) so we just went to bed. Woke up and had lunch with Jen, Shannon and Kathleen, then lunch with Caleb and then lunch with Maggie. Now I'm here about to clean my room and then deloft my bed. Fun stuff :)
Friday night was amazing though! I went to the NCAA Championships and had sooo much fun. The guy behind me was extremely annoying because he acted like he knew everything about the sport and he really didn't but he wouldn't stop talking about point deductions and stupid shit. My friends and I wanted to punch him. A lot. We ended up taking the gold (duh). Fourth year in a row :D After that I went to Relay for Life for about an hour and then Lily picked me up and Lily, Josh, Matt and I watched "Stick It." I love that movie. Then Lily took me to Josh's house and we hung out for a bit. Ordered food and cleaned up Mikey's mess from his major party. I then got on Facebook and the most amazing thing happened -- Ryan F. started a conversation with me. We were never on bad terms but I'm really glad we're talking again. He explained why he stopped talking to me and we really had a heart to heart. He invited me over so of course I went. We hung out for a bit but then he got into the shower. Chelsea came over about 5 am (while Ryan was still in the shower) so we just went to bed. Woke up and had lunch with Jen, Shannon and Kathleen, then lunch with Caleb and then lunch with Maggie. Now I'm here about to clean my room and then deloft my bed. Fun stuff :)
Monday, April 21, 2008
Extended Weekend
My weekend basically started on Thursday and this is it in a nutshell. Thursday was Israel Day so during the middle of the day Jen, her friend, a girl who may potentially come to UGA, and I went to Tate to see the camel and eat some Jewish food. Twas fun. Later that night Chelsea and I went to the last UGASO (Symphany Orchestra) concert of the semester and then immediately following I went to XHale to continue the Israel Day festivities. It was a lot of fun. After that I went to Level 131 for a foam party. I really don't know if it was fun or not. The foam burned my eyes and felt really nasty but I really love to dance so I guess it evened out. Didn't like the $10 but oh well. Snelling followed and then I went to bed.
Friday was the holy UGA Night at Six Flags. It was so much fun! Ali, Emily, Josh and I went together and when we got there saw a lot of our friends. We rode every ride that we wanted to except Goliath which broke twice while we were in line so we left 75 minutes early to go eat at Choo Choos. After that I went to Josh's place and watch Meet the Robinsons. It was good but it probably would have been better if I wasn't falling asleep.
Saturday I had planned on studying for a major part of the day. These plans were ruined when I was invited to Jason's birthday party which basically started at 2 at a pool. Seeing as how I didn't wake up until 1, there wasn't much time for studying. So, we went to the pool until about 3 30 then we went to Jason's house. Played video games until 6 when we went to dinner. After dinner we went back to Jason's house to start the real party. I met tons of interesting and fun people. I really enjoyed myself. I really didn't want to stay the night so between 3 and 4 I took Josh home then went home and went to bed.
Sunday was my lounge and study day. I didn't do anything for a major part of the day but play video games. Went to Dairy Queen with Josh and Mikey. After that I actually read a chapter in Biology. Did my French homework that isn't due until tomorrow. I really enjoy when I'm productive it just takes so much for me to actually get started. Hopefully my ability to procrastinate will decline in the future. That is one thing I'm unfortunately good at...
I think BeMack (Barrett, Emily, Michelle, Ali, Carrie, Kelley) has disbanded. Well, that's not true. It's just EMack now... I really don't know what I did but I'm not invited to anything anymore. We all used to eat dinner together. Now, they still eat dinner together. I'm just not invited and when I call to make dinner plans they don't answer until after and of course have already eaten. I'm not fretting. It's just really annoying and a little upsetting. Last day of classes is in one week and tonight is my last dance class. Sadness :(
Friday was the holy UGA Night at Six Flags. It was so much fun! Ali, Emily, Josh and I went together and when we got there saw a lot of our friends. We rode every ride that we wanted to except Goliath which broke twice while we were in line so we left 75 minutes early to go eat at Choo Choos. After that I went to Josh's place and watch Meet the Robinsons. It was good but it probably would have been better if I wasn't falling asleep.
Saturday I had planned on studying for a major part of the day. These plans were ruined when I was invited to Jason's birthday party which basically started at 2 at a pool. Seeing as how I didn't wake up until 1, there wasn't much time for studying. So, we went to the pool until about 3 30 then we went to Jason's house. Played video games until 6 when we went to dinner. After dinner we went back to Jason's house to start the real party. I met tons of interesting and fun people. I really enjoyed myself. I really didn't want to stay the night so between 3 and 4 I took Josh home then went home and went to bed.
Sunday was my lounge and study day. I didn't do anything for a major part of the day but play video games. Went to Dairy Queen with Josh and Mikey. After that I actually read a chapter in Biology. Did my French homework that isn't due until tomorrow. I really enjoy when I'm productive it just takes so much for me to actually get started. Hopefully my ability to procrastinate will decline in the future. That is one thing I'm unfortunately good at...
I think BeMack (Barrett, Emily, Michelle, Ali, Carrie, Kelley) has disbanded. Well, that's not true. It's just EMack now... I really don't know what I did but I'm not invited to anything anymore. We all used to eat dinner together. Now, they still eat dinner together. I'm just not invited and when I call to make dinner plans they don't answer until after and of course have already eaten. I'm not fretting. It's just really annoying and a little upsetting. Last day of classes is in one week and tonight is my last dance class. Sadness :(
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
Completely Done or A New Me
Before I start the real content, as always, here's some pre-content. This is in response to my parking places. Yesterday night, like every Monday night, I had dance class at Ramsey. Now, Ramsey is twice as far away as Snelling. I take the elevator down to my car and as soon as I see my car from the elevator window I immediately think, "Fuck that!" and proceed to return to ground level and walk to Ramsey. I am NOT giving up that parking spot! Ever! I conveniently left 20 minutes earlier than normal so I just figured I'd walk instead of wait for a bus. I got about half way to Snelling, in the O House area, and I see Caleb's car at the red light so I walk up to it and he thankfully gives me a ride. I ended up arriving 10 - 15 minutes early but whatevs. I still have a kick ass parking spot. Thankfully I have friends in the class who can drive me back to Creswell because right when I call Paul, who lives in ECV right next to Ramsey, to drive me back, my phone dies... Oh well. Upon returning to Creswell, I baked cookies for Caleb because he failed his lab practical because the machine broke. My cookies are pretty amazing. Now real content.
I honestly think I'm done with guys. Done with hook-ups. Done with sex. Done with everything until I find the right person. There will be no more going over to someone's place when I feel as if something may happen. I thought I had turned over a new leaf on Easter but apparently the wind blew it a little. That leaf is permanently stationary now. I think I may just try girls now. Not try them as if they're some kind of tool or new dessert but actually date and form a relationship with one. Guys just aren't working (for anyone apparently). I've already talked to Sarah V. about it and have received her opinions on the matter and I plan on discussing this with several others.
On to a different note, same book different page, I can't believe I've lied about my sexual history. I guess being a virgin is more appealing to me and I would rather lie about it than tell people who don't care about the truth. As of last night, I guess I've technically had sex four times. I honestly feel as if I'm ashamed of my lifestyle. I really don't know what's wrong with me. I always thought I was such a better person. But, as I've been telling people a lot lately, everything happens for a reason. It is time for yet another new, but more permanent, Barrett.
I honestly think I'm done with guys. Done with hook-ups. Done with sex. Done with everything until I find the right person. There will be no more going over to someone's place when I feel as if something may happen. I thought I had turned over a new leaf on Easter but apparently the wind blew it a little. That leaf is permanently stationary now. I think I may just try girls now. Not try them as if they're some kind of tool or new dessert but actually date and form a relationship with one. Guys just aren't working (for anyone apparently). I've already talked to Sarah V. about it and have received her opinions on the matter and I plan on discussing this with several others.
On to a different note, same book different page, I can't believe I've lied about my sexual history. I guess being a virgin is more appealing to me and I would rather lie about it than tell people who don't care about the truth. As of last night, I guess I've technically had sex four times. I honestly feel as if I'm ashamed of my lifestyle. I really don't know what's wrong with me. I always thought I was such a better person. But, as I've been telling people a lot lately, everything happens for a reason. It is time for yet another new, but more permanent, Barrett.
Sunday, April 13, 2008
Parking Places
Well, before I get into the important subject matter, I'll talk about my night. I went to Blur last night and it was interesting. I also went Friday night and Friday was probably more fun because there wasn't a crisis. Caleb and I danced some and that was fun. I finally got to see Daniel H. I haven't seen him in ages. Well, I've seen him around but we've never had a chance to talk or hang out. There was some drama last night which made the whole event a little distressing but whatevs. I told person that I wouldn't tell anyone anything so sorry guys.
Anyways, as I was driving back from lunch today I checked the three Creswell parking spots in hopes to get a really good spot. All full. Figures. Assholes. So I hang my head and admit defeat while returning to the parking deck. I turn into the deck and think about how empty it is. The best spot in the whole deck was left open!! What an idiot! You better bet I stole that spot. There are just some things people don't understand about good parking spots. When you get an amazing parking spot you leave it for nothing! I'm pretty sure the person who had that spot before me didn't drive his car for weeks. I remember it being a silver car for a really long time. I hope no one expects me to drive to anything for the rest of the semester. I got the best parking spot at Snelling once and I would have rather walked back to Creswell than leave my parking spot. (But of course I can't do that because I would have gotten a ticket...) Parking spots are rather ironic. When you get an amazing parking spot you really don't even need it because you aren't going to leave it. It's almost as if it's just bragging rights. And now I can finally brag again!
Anyways, as I was driving back from lunch today I checked the three Creswell parking spots in hopes to get a really good spot. All full. Figures. Assholes. So I hang my head and admit defeat while returning to the parking deck. I turn into the deck and think about how empty it is. The best spot in the whole deck was left open!! What an idiot! You better bet I stole that spot. There are just some things people don't understand about good parking spots. When you get an amazing parking spot you leave it for nothing! I'm pretty sure the person who had that spot before me didn't drive his car for weeks. I remember it being a silver car for a really long time. I hope no one expects me to drive to anything for the rest of the semester. I got the best parking spot at Snelling once and I would have rather walked back to Creswell than leave my parking spot. (But of course I can't do that because I would have gotten a ticket...) Parking spots are rather ironic. When you get an amazing parking spot you really don't even need it because you aren't going to leave it. It's almost as if it's just bragging rights. And now I can finally brag again!
Saturday, April 12, 2008
Hmmm
Well, I really haven't been posting lately and that's mostly because nothing has happened. This week has been rather uneventful. I did really well on my French oral presentation. I only got 28/40 points on my Biology exam. I saw Melissa Rouch live and she is effing hilarious. Josh and I hung out quite a bit this week. I went to Blur, the new gay club tonight, and I might go again tomorrow. It was actually kind of fun. It's a little more classy (eh) than Detour. Nothing else too major. Nothing that I remember at least. Only 20 more days until I leave for Valdosta.
Sunday, April 6, 2008
Weekend Over
Of course, last night I gave in and went to Josh's place. I got there about 2 30 and we hung out for a little while. I'd say we went to bed around 2 45. I don't think we went to sleep until about 5 30 or 6. I'll let you leave what we did during that time to your imagination.
I borrowed some games from Josh and I have literally done nothing else all day. I haven't left Creswell since I've returned. I had some left over Chick-fil-A so I had that for dinner: 2 chicken sandwiches and 12 nuggets. Yum. :) I really don't know what my friends did for dinner... I told Emily earlier that I probably wasn't going to go to dinner with them so I guess she told them because I haven't heard from any of them all day. I love lazy Sundays. Sucks it's over though.
In other news, the girl has been found. Her name is Selenaand apparently she left the room to go do something and when she came back the door was locked (go figure). She said she knocked but no one answered so she just walked back to Payne, her residence hall which happens to be clear across campus (not really but it's pretty far). Oh well. She's alive. Go her.
French Oral Presentation - Tuesday
Biology Test - Friday
I borrowed some games from Josh and I have literally done nothing else all day. I haven't left Creswell since I've returned. I had some left over Chick-fil-A so I had that for dinner: 2 chicken sandwiches and 12 nuggets. Yum. :) I really don't know what my friends did for dinner... I told Emily earlier that I probably wasn't going to go to dinner with them so I guess she told them because I haven't heard from any of them all day. I love lazy Sundays. Sucks it's over though.
In other news, the girl has been found. Her name is Selena
French Oral Presentation - Tuesday
Biology Test - Friday
Saturday, April 5, 2008
Fun Day
Still no word on the missing girl. Her stuff is still here. Jacob doesn't seem all that worried about it though...
Emily, Caleb and I at lunch together this morning and randomly decided to go to Lenox Mall in Atlanta and have a shopping filled day. Though, while we were on our way there, we decided to go to the Mall of Georgia instead of Lenox. Today was filled with a lot of spontaneity. They both bought some really nice tops. I didn't buy anything. But I had a lot of fun regardless. When we returned, we ate dinner with Carrie and during dinner, Caleb, Emily and I decided to go see a movie. Apparently we just decide to do random things when we eat together. We chose 21 and played video games until the movie started. It was really good!
I was planning on hanging out with Josh after the movie but he went to a party and is now really wasted. I think he still wants to hang out but I really don't know if I'm going to. It would be different if we got drunk together or if I was with him before he got drunk. I don't know. He's yet to call and I doubt he will. I think I'm just going to go to bed and if he calls I guess we'll see what happens.
Emily, Caleb and I at lunch together this morning and randomly decided to go to Lenox Mall in Atlanta and have a shopping filled day. Though, while we were on our way there, we decided to go to the Mall of Georgia instead of Lenox. Today was filled with a lot of spontaneity. They both bought some really nice tops. I didn't buy anything. But I had a lot of fun regardless. When we returned, we ate dinner with Carrie and during dinner, Caleb, Emily and I decided to go see a movie. Apparently we just decide to do random things when we eat together. We chose 21 and played video games until the movie started. It was really good!
I was planning on hanging out with Josh after the movie but he went to a party and is now really wasted. I think he still wants to hang out but I really don't know if I'm going to. It would be different if we got drunk together or if I was with him before he got drunk. I don't know. He's yet to call and I doubt he will. I think I'm just going to go to bed and if he calls I guess we'll see what happens.
Strange Happenings
Probably the biggest Dawgs After Dark we were going to have was canceled last night due to the rain. But no worries, we're going to redo it next semester and it'll be even bigger and better! Since I had nothing else to do last night, I went to my first frat party last night--Delta Sig. It was a lot of fun. It was basically like going to a club but everything, cover and drinks, was free. So many people I know went as well so it was really nice. Sorry for calling you so late last night Josh :(
Last night when I returned, my roommate was gone. Not long after though he brought back a girl and, if you know my roommate, that is something completely bizarre. About 5 minutes after they came in the door she asked for clothes to sleep in - she was obviously staying the night. About 3ish, she went to use the bathroom and he went to brush his teeth. She came back before him and just proceeded to get into his bed. When he came back he did the same and they went to bed and since I had nothing else to do I did the same. I thought they would just cuddle or go to sleep or something... No. She would not stop talking. I don't know how I did it but I finally fell asleep. When I woke up she was just gone. No sign of her. I didn't just dream her being here becuase her stuff is still here: clothes, shoes, cell phone. Jacob doesn't know where she went. She literally disappeared. It is the strangest thing ever... I was frightened when I was left alone because I thought she might jump out and kill me or steal my stuff when I left... So I definitely checked both of the closests for her. If any news on her whereabouts surfaces, it will definitely be posted.
Last night when I returned, my roommate was gone. Not long after though he brought back a girl and, if you know my roommate, that is something completely bizarre. About 5 minutes after they came in the door she asked for clothes to sleep in - she was obviously staying the night. About 3ish, she went to use the bathroom and he went to brush his teeth. She came back before him and just proceeded to get into his bed. When he came back he did the same and they went to bed and since I had nothing else to do I did the same. I thought they would just cuddle or go to sleep or something... No. She would not stop talking. I don't know how I did it but I finally fell asleep. When I woke up she was just gone. No sign of her. I didn't just dream her being here becuase her stuff is still here: clothes, shoes, cell phone. Jacob doesn't know where she went. She literally disappeared. It is the strangest thing ever... I was frightened when I was left alone because I thought she might jump out and kill me or steal my stuff when I left... So I definitely checked both of the closests for her. If any news on her whereabouts surfaces, it will definitely be posted.
Wednesday, April 2, 2008
What an Amazing Day! 2
After eating with Josh and Kelley, Josh and I continued to hang out. We went to EVC to eat again with Ben and Susan and then Josh and I went to his place. We had some nice together time :). We always have a fun time when we're alone ;-). Then, I came back to my place and watched some Pokémon. I love Pokémon! Bolton next with Carrie and Emily. They have bread bowls in Bolton now!!!! It was amazing. Now I'm doing laundry and Pokémon. Yes. I do Pokémon.
What an Amazing Day!
We watched a video in Greek Mythology. It was actually an interesting video. It was probably the only time this semester I've stayed awake in class. In Biology everyone got two more points added to their test! 78/80 bitches! That's a 97.5!! And just for showing up everyone got 1 more point added to their final grade. Hellz yes. If I do not make an A in that class then I am a complete failure at life. To top things off, today is one of the prettiest days by far. The sun is shining. It's warm outside. I'm done with classes. It's not even noon. Also, I'm about to go eat with some of my favorite people, Josh and Kelley top the list. I'm really glad to have a friend like Josh. He's probably my best male companion here. I'm so nice to him, too. You're lucky to have a friend like me :P
Monday, March 31, 2008
End of One Thing At Least
Josh and I had a conversation today and I believe we're just going to let things be and just stay friends. I feel as if it's a very respectable decision and some very valid points were made. So, I went from zero to four back to zero potential boyfriends in two weeks time. Since Josh and I are remaining friends, I thought I would hang with an ex-potential to see if things might be there. Nope. Paul is so frustrating. He contradicts everything I say and criticizes everything I do. I do no good in his eyes. Everything I say or do is shot down: the classes I'm signing up for, the music I like, gaming skills. I just can't wait for this year to be over. Summer is steadily approaching but not fast enough.
May Be the End
Writing this is becoming more of a hassle than anything so it may be the end very soon.
Saturday night Josh had a house party-esque type deal. There were six of us and it was soo much fun. We played drinking games and of course the second I start winning we switch games. Then we had a mini dance party (some of which was caught on video). When everyone got tired, or just fell asleep, the rest of us talked and then soon went to bed ourselves. Of course, going to bed doesn't mean going to sleep. Josh and I then proceeded to get very hot and heavy, excluding details. It was very nice though :)
The next morning we all woke up and started round 2. Not really, but we went to eat and then went our separate ways. I basically did nothing until Caleb's birthday dinner and then BeMack dinner after that. Went back to my room and studied for a bit and then started playing Pokemon Yellow. Yeah... I caved. Oh well. It'll be fun.
Today I found out that one of the faulty questions on the test was thrown out so it's no longer a 74/80 but a 76/80 on my Biology exam!!! That's a 95!! Yaaaaaaaaay! :D
Saturday night Josh had a house party-esque type deal. There were six of us and it was soo much fun. We played drinking games and of course the second I start winning we switch games. Then we had a mini dance party (some of which was caught on video). When everyone got tired, or just fell asleep, the rest of us talked and then soon went to bed ourselves. Of course, going to bed doesn't mean going to sleep. Josh and I then proceeded to get very hot and heavy, excluding details. It was very nice though :)
The next morning we all woke up and started round 2. Not really, but we went to eat and then went our separate ways. I basically did nothing until Caleb's birthday dinner and then BeMack dinner after that. Went back to my room and studied for a bit and then started playing Pokemon Yellow. Yeah... I caved. Oh well. It'll be fun.
Today I found out that one of the faulty questions on the test was thrown out so it's no longer a 74/80 but a 76/80 on my Biology exam!!! That's a 95!! Yaaaaaaaaay! :D
Saturday, March 29, 2008
Silly Kids
I had a Biology test on Friday (which I totally rocked 74/80) and so I spent a major part of Thursday studying. I texted Josh asking for a study party and he agreed so every bit of free time we shared, I spent mine studying with him while he played Pokemon :). We ate dinner twice, once with Ben, and those were my few breaks from studying. After I finished studying we went to bed since we were so tired. Of course, going to bed doesn't mean going to sleep. As the night progressed, we got a little closer and cuddled a little more and eventually kissed. It was nice :)
Apparently, I was supposed to text Jonathan and hang out with him Thursday. I feel as if my school work and studying takes precedence over hanging out with him. I saw him Friday on my way to class, and I was going to ignore him, but I decided against it and smiled at him. He basically snuffed off my existence and gave a very fake smile. How rude.
Friday, I picked Josh up and we went to UPS, to mail my VSU application, and to Kroger because he needed to go. I learned quite a bit about Josh, allergies and Josh's allergies. It was a very interesting and worthwhile trip. Afterwards we went to Josh's place and helped Mikey, his roommate, get ready for a formal he was attending. I had to leave early though so I could go eat and get on the road with Kelley to see Steel Magnolias. We drove about 45 minutes and were still kind of late and when we got to the church we basically walked around the whole thing and couldn't find where the play was being held. So finally I suggested we just drive around and look for cars and she said we had nothing else to lose. Apparently, there is a community theatre behind the church and that's where it was being shown... Crazy Bible beaters. The play was absolutely amazing though. After we got back, I went downtown to dance, which was definitely fun and then went back to my bed and immediately fell asleep.
Oh yeah, I must add that I've had this uncontrollable urge to play Pokemon. I completely blame you, Josh! :P
Apparently, I was supposed to text Jonathan and hang out with him Thursday. I feel as if my school work and studying takes precedence over hanging out with him. I saw him Friday on my way to class, and I was going to ignore him, but I decided against it and smiled at him. He basically snuffed off my existence and gave a very fake smile. How rude.
Friday, I picked Josh up and we went to UPS, to mail my VSU application, and to Kroger because he needed to go. I learned quite a bit about Josh, allergies and Josh's allergies. It was a very interesting and worthwhile trip. Afterwards we went to Josh's place and helped Mikey, his roommate, get ready for a formal he was attending. I had to leave early though so I could go eat and get on the road with Kelley to see Steel Magnolias. We drove about 45 minutes and were still kind of late and when we got to the church we basically walked around the whole thing and couldn't find where the play was being held. So finally I suggested we just drive around and look for cars and she said we had nothing else to lose. Apparently, there is a community theatre behind the church and that's where it was being shown... Crazy Bible beaters. The play was absolutely amazing though. After we got back, I went downtown to dance, which was definitely fun and then went back to my bed and immediately fell asleep.
Oh yeah, I must add that I've had this uncontrollable urge to play Pokemon. I completely blame you, Josh! :P
Thursday, March 27, 2008
So Tired
Lately, I've been too busy or too tired to update as much as I'd like. It sucks. Oh well. Here's a short update of the goings on in my life.
Two nights ago I was in Kelley's room and Jaryd, her boyfriend, said he had a surprise for her and that he wanted to come over so that was exciting. I finally got to meet him. Later that night I guess I finally gave in and went to Jonathan's place and watched a movie with him. We watched L'Auberge Espanol. It was pretty good. After that, I decided to stay and we cuddled and what not. What was I thinking?
So, yesterday I woke up at Jonathan's place and I was dead tired. I fell asleep in my first class and did everything in my power to not fall asleep in my next class. When I got back from my class I immediately fell asleep in my bed. The rest of the day I did somewhat productive things.
Paul and I had decided that we were going to play Brawl that night and so he picked me up from the SLC at 9 and then we went to pick Josh up from work and the three of us went to Snelling and then to Paul's place to hang out. I thought I absolutely sucked at Brawl but apparently I'm better than the both of them. :P Paul is oh so very ticklish. So, very often Josh and I would stop what we're doing to just tickle him. It was a really fun night. Jonathan texted me at 2 while I was still at Paul's wanting me to go to his place. I basically gave the impression that I didn't want to so he texted Josh asking for a cuddle party. He's very forward and how dare he think I'd want to spend more than one consecutive day with him. Down to three potential boyfriends.
Two nights ago I was in Kelley's room and Jaryd, her boyfriend, said he had a surprise for her and that he wanted to come over so that was exciting. I finally got to meet him. Later that night I guess I finally gave in and went to Jonathan's place and watched a movie with him. We watched L'Auberge Espanol. It was pretty good. After that, I decided to stay and we cuddled and what not. What was I thinking?
So, yesterday I woke up at Jonathan's place and I was dead tired. I fell asleep in my first class and did everything in my power to not fall asleep in my next class. When I got back from my class I immediately fell asleep in my bed. The rest of the day I did somewhat productive things.
Paul and I had decided that we were going to play Brawl that night and so he picked me up from the SLC at 9 and then we went to pick Josh up from work and the three of us went to Snelling and then to Paul's place to hang out. I thought I absolutely sucked at Brawl but apparently I'm better than the both of them. :P Paul is oh so very ticklish. So, very often Josh and I would stop what we're doing to just tickle him. It was a really fun night. Jonathan texted me at 2 while I was still at Paul's wanting me to go to his place. I basically gave the impression that I didn't want to so he texted Josh asking for a cuddle party. He's very forward and how dare he think I'd want to spend more than one consecutive day with him. Down to three potential boyfriends.
Tuesday, March 25, 2008
Potential Boyfriends
As of last night I have discovered four potential boyfriends. Well, five if you include Ryan G. but I'd rather be his friend than date him but he has let me know that the offer is there. I've met each of them through a friend and I told myself that if I were to date someone it would be because I actually met them in person first as opposed to online. I can still remember how I met all of them, mind you I met two of them just last week. Even though I do like each of them, there is something about them that makes it to where I just can't see me dating them. Most of the cases are unexplainable. Anyways, here they are in no specific order (although it's probably a thematic order).
1. Jonathan C. -- I met him last week through Josh. He's funny and pretty cute. He's also Asian and I used to be obsessed with everything Asian. He literally lives down the road in walking distance so it wouldn't be too inconvenient. But he's basically told me, though not in these words, that he would only be able to date someone when it convenienced him. He's pretty busy but as am I. So I see this one as being the least likely to work out.
2. Joseph F. -- I met him last weekend through Chris and Caleb. We went to his house to drink. He lives on the next street over but it's still pretty close. Definitely close enough to walk though we didn't. It was really fun. He has nice looks as well and he plays hockey. The next day Caleb texted me basically asking me if he wanted me to hook us up so it makes me believe that Joseph likes me. Well, that and he keeps poking me on Facebook. Little does Caleb know I can do things quite well on my own and Joseph took me to Wal-Mart that day. It was pretty fun and the conversation flowed nicely. He seemed a little subservient though and always walked a couple feet behind me. But this could just be because I walk really fast and I'm over analysing things. I wouldn't mind dating him but he's not my top choice.
3. Paul B. - I met him last semester through Dustin B., definitely no relation. Dustin told me on more than one occasion that Paul thought I was cute. I wasn't really attracted to him at the time but as I got to know him better we became friends. He took me out on a couple of dates but nothing particularly amazing sparked and then for some reason we just stopped hanging out. Nothing bad happened. We just stopped. And now we're becoming friends again and I believe the attraction is growing. I stayed the night at his house last night. He studied for a bit and then we started tickling each other then we went to bed. Of course we cuddled and it was pretty nice. It was probably one of the first times I was able to sleep while cuddling and I imagine we slept peacefully because we woke up in the same position. Sometimes we bicker but it's nothing too serious so I guess we'll see where things lead.
And finally...
4. Josh H. - Surprised? Me too. We met on a bus through Dustin B. He's kind of nerdy and a little dorky and, though I make fun of him for it, he's probably the one I'd want to be with over the rest. We've been hanging out quite a bit and I really enjoy the moments we spend together. The only problem is that I don't want anything to happen to our friendship. I don't want things to be weird or to end completely. There are times when I can sense he may be attracted to me as well, though I'm probably completely wrong, and other times I just feel as if I annoy him. Which isn't surprising. I'm a pretty annoying person. Even if nothing happens I would still be quite content with us remaining to be friends.
Since I'm at a loss for what to do, I figure I'll let them do the pursuing for a week or more. I've decided that I'm going to return back to the ways of old fashioned dating. Some have mentioned going on one but I've yet to see a follow-up so none are really scoring any points :P As always, I guess I'm just going to see how things go.
1. Jonathan C. -- I met him last week through Josh. He's funny and pretty cute. He's also Asian and I used to be obsessed with everything Asian. He literally lives down the road in walking distance so it wouldn't be too inconvenient. But he's basically told me, though not in these words, that he would only be able to date someone when it convenienced him. He's pretty busy but as am I. So I see this one as being the least likely to work out.
2. Joseph F. -- I met him last weekend through Chris and Caleb. We went to his house to drink. He lives on the next street over but it's still pretty close. Definitely close enough to walk though we didn't. It was really fun. He has nice looks as well and he plays hockey. The next day Caleb texted me basically asking me if he wanted me to hook us up so it makes me believe that Joseph likes me. Well, that and he keeps poking me on Facebook. Little does Caleb know I can do things quite well on my own and Joseph took me to Wal-Mart that day. It was pretty fun and the conversation flowed nicely. He seemed a little subservient though and always walked a couple feet behind me. But this could just be because I walk really fast and I'm over analysing things. I wouldn't mind dating him but he's not my top choice.
3. Paul B. - I met him last semester through Dustin B., definitely no relation. Dustin told me on more than one occasion that Paul thought I was cute. I wasn't really attracted to him at the time but as I got to know him better we became friends. He took me out on a couple of dates but nothing particularly amazing sparked and then for some reason we just stopped hanging out. Nothing bad happened. We just stopped. And now we're becoming friends again and I believe the attraction is growing. I stayed the night at his house last night. He studied for a bit and then we started tickling each other then we went to bed. Of course we cuddled and it was pretty nice. It was probably one of the first times I was able to sleep while cuddling and I imagine we slept peacefully because we woke up in the same position. Sometimes we bicker but it's nothing too serious so I guess we'll see where things lead.
And finally...
4. Josh H. - Surprised? Me too. We met on a bus through Dustin B. He's kind of nerdy and a little dorky and, though I make fun of him for it, he's probably the one I'd want to be with over the rest. We've been hanging out quite a bit and I really enjoy the moments we spend together. The only problem is that I don't want anything to happen to our friendship. I don't want things to be weird or to end completely. There are times when I can sense he may be attracted to me as well, though I'm probably completely wrong, and other times I just feel as if I annoy him. Which isn't surprising. I'm a pretty annoying person. Even if nothing happens I would still be quite content with us remaining to be friends.
Since I'm at a loss for what to do, I figure I'll let them do the pursuing for a week or more. I've decided that I'm going to return back to the ways of old fashioned dating. Some have mentioned going on one but I've yet to see a follow-up so none are really scoring any points :P As always, I guess I'm just going to see how things go.
Sunday, March 23, 2008
How Time Flies
The weekend is already over. It seems as if it only started yesterday. Sadness. But now I understand how people could just all of a sudden stop writing a blog. Sometimes you just completely forget that you even have one. Going out at night and then updating the next morning can be quite the hassle.
Yesterday was Caleb's birthday and I meant to give him his present but either he was busy or I was so I never got around to it. On his way back from Atlanta he texted me asking me if I wanted to go to one of Chris', his boyfriend, friend's places to drink. Duh. I was kind of shocked that it was Chris who wanted me to go but apparently he likes me a whole lot more now for some reason. So of course I went. I met Chris' friend Joey who is a really nice guy. He plays hockey and he took me to Wal-Mart today. Chris and I really bonded last night. Basically, Chris and I have everything in common that Caleb and Chris do not... which is quite a bit apparently. I think he likes me even more now :)
I can't decide if I want to peruse Jonathan or Joey, let things just play out with both or neither. It's quite the trivial dilemma I have found myself in. They're both nice and have personality and I enjoy hanging out with them but there is something about both of them, though it's different, that I don't like. Not something major but something that possibly prevents me from becoming really attracted to them. I guess I'll just let time progress and see what happens.
I want to lay in the sun tomorrow.
I need to study.
I wish Caleb would return so I could get rid of his bloody gift.
I am really tired.
Yesterday was Caleb's birthday and I meant to give him his present but either he was busy or I was so I never got around to it. On his way back from Atlanta he texted me asking me if I wanted to go to one of Chris', his boyfriend, friend's places to drink. Duh. I was kind of shocked that it was Chris who wanted me to go but apparently he likes me a whole lot more now for some reason. So of course I went. I met Chris' friend Joey who is a really nice guy. He plays hockey and he took me to Wal-Mart today. Chris and I really bonded last night. Basically, Chris and I have everything in common that Caleb and Chris do not... which is quite a bit apparently. I think he likes me even more now :)
I can't decide if I want to peruse Jonathan or Joey, let things just play out with both or neither. It's quite the trivial dilemma I have found myself in. They're both nice and have personality and I enjoy hanging out with them but there is something about both of them, though it's different, that I don't like. Not something major but something that possibly prevents me from becoming really attracted to them. I guess I'll just let time progress and see what happens.
I want to lay in the sun tomorrow.
I need to study.
I wish Caleb would return so I could get rid of his bloody gift.
I am really tired.
Saturday, March 22, 2008
Last Time
Well, I thought I had a change of heart but Justin S. (of UGA) really wanted to come over so how could I resist? He left about an hour ago. I would have updated sooner but I went to Kelley's room and I've been too busy updating my list, putting it in chronological order and adding new sections. Justin said he wanted to go down on me so I figured I would let him once and it would be out of his system. He came over and we kind of played on my bed and then I guess he did what he basically came to do and then we were done... Afterwards, we layed on my bed and cuddled.
He's kind of weird. He would look at me funny and when I would look at him he would quickly look away. I guess you could say he's very child-like. He's very short like one as well. I don't know. But I've been talking with Kelley and I think we've (well I've) decided that tomorrow being Easter is a great time to turn my life around. I apologize now if my blogs get boring from here on out :)
He's kind of weird. He would look at me funny and when I would look at him he would quickly look away. I guess you could say he's very child-like. He's very short like one as well. I don't know. But I've been talking with Kelley and I think we've (well I've) decided that tomorrow being Easter is a great time to turn my life around. I apologize now if my blogs get boring from here on out :)
Change of Heart
I do believe I've had another epiphany or revelation or whatever you normal people call it. Last night went exactly as expected but I didn't think I'd feel this way when it was over. After hearing about the problems one of my friends went through, her depression and how her father died, and then what happened last night, I've decided to become a genuinely better person. I don't know how it's going to happen but I suppose it can. I suppose I can start by doing less bad and more good. Anyways, on to the meat of the story.
Last night, Ryan G. was drunk and I knew it before I even texted him. One thing led to another and, oh, there I am in his room. He let it be known, before we even got back to his place, that he wasn't wearing underwear. He also conveniently happen to mention that he broke up with his boyfriend some time ago. So all of this time he didn't have a boyfriend... We got back and started watching TV and getting closer to each other. He would rub his hand on my arm or scratch my back. Then, of course, we started making out and slowly shedding the clothes. The TV is still on. I don't know about you but no matter what I'm doing, if that TV is on I'm going to watch/listen to it. We'd be making out, something funny would be said so I'd laugh. He insisted on keeping the TV on. So, finally I told him, "I'm not getting naked until the TV goes off." It's not like I'm uncomfortable with my body -- the full moon was seemingly emitting more light than the TV. The TV was just annoying.
We were rolling around on his futon, switching who was on top and who was on bottom. One of the times when I was on bottom, he went down on me. Let me tell ya, having someone else do it for you is so much more pleasurable than doing it yourself. I don't know why but I just won't go down on people. I've heard it really isn't that bad but I just can't bring myself to do it. So we finished without actually 'finishing' if you know what I mean and we just started to cuddle with me being the big spoon. Naked cuddling couldn't possibly lead to good things. Some pelvic thrusting began and next thing you know it was in. We. Were. Doing. It. It was very weird at first. Not at all what I was expecting. I was expecting some instant pleasure and not so much of some weird pressure. I didn't even realize it was in at first. But the whole time I couldn't help but think, "I think we're doing it. Are we doing it? It might be in. I think it's in! What are we doing?" We switched positions and things got a little better. Had we some lube I'm sure it would have been absolutely amazing! But the pleasure mixed with chaffing just didn't feel too nice. He then all of a sudden felt really bad so we stopped much to my dismay. It's fine though. We talked and I found out some very interesting information.
1. He thinks I'm a good kisser which is a major yay. It must be true because he's not the first who has told me. 2. It's not very attractive to discuss my list of boys I've been with. Surprisingly many people think I'm some innocent boy who is inexperienced and they find that more attractive. 3. Apparently all of Russell knew about my blog, at least the gays anyways. This is the reason it is now private and if you're reading it now it means I like you very very much and that you weren't lazy enough to blow off signing into Google. I might have learned more but I really don't remember so therefore I can't possibly care.
Last night, Ryan G. was drunk and I knew it before I even texted him. One thing led to another and, oh, there I am in his room. He let it be known, before we even got back to his place, that he wasn't wearing underwear. He also conveniently happen to mention that he broke up with his boyfriend some time ago. So all of this time he didn't have a boyfriend... We got back and started watching TV and getting closer to each other. He would rub his hand on my arm or scratch my back. Then, of course, we started making out and slowly shedding the clothes. The TV is still on. I don't know about you but no matter what I'm doing, if that TV is on I'm going to watch/listen to it. We'd be making out, something funny would be said so I'd laugh. He insisted on keeping the TV on. So, finally I told him, "I'm not getting naked until the TV goes off." It's not like I'm uncomfortable with my body -- the full moon was seemingly emitting more light than the TV. The TV was just annoying.
We were rolling around on his futon, switching who was on top and who was on bottom. One of the times when I was on bottom, he went down on me. Let me tell ya, having someone else do it for you is so much more pleasurable than doing it yourself. I don't know why but I just won't go down on people. I've heard it really isn't that bad but I just can't bring myself to do it. So we finished without actually 'finishing' if you know what I mean and we just started to cuddle with me being the big spoon. Naked cuddling couldn't possibly lead to good things. Some pelvic thrusting began and next thing you know it was in. We. Were. Doing. It. It was very weird at first. Not at all what I was expecting. I was expecting some instant pleasure and not so much of some weird pressure. I didn't even realize it was in at first. But the whole time I couldn't help but think, "I think we're doing it. Are we doing it? It might be in. I think it's in! What are we doing?" We switched positions and things got a little better. Had we some lube I'm sure it would have been absolutely amazing! But the pleasure mixed with chaffing just didn't feel too nice. He then all of a sudden felt really bad so we stopped much to my dismay. It's fine though. We talked and I found out some very interesting information.
1. He thinks I'm a good kisser which is a major yay. It must be true because he's not the first who has told me. 2. It's not very attractive to discuss my list of boys I've been with. Surprisingly many people think I'm some innocent boy who is inexperienced and they find that more attractive. 3. Apparently all of Russell knew about my blog, at least the gays anyways. This is the reason it is now private and if you're reading it now it means I like you very very much and that you weren't lazy enough to blow off signing into Google. I might have learned more but I really don't remember so therefore I can't possibly care.
Last Home Meet
So, tonight was the last home meet for the Georgia Gym Dogs! It was a pretty great meet. We won (of course) but not without some difficulty. Things started out rather rough for the girls but we ended up getting two 10s!!! It was pretty amazing. Afterwards, we all went to Choo Choos and had a marvelous time :)
Caleb and I then got ready to go to some drag show, which was lame, with his boyfriend, Chris Stokes, Dustin B and his boyfriend. Absolutely not fun. I was throwing up Cobra Ones all night! Carrie and Michelle finally arrived downtown and I met them at Buddha Bar. It was pretty fun. I had never been before and it was fairly interesting. Then Carrie and I just felt the uncontrollable urge to dance so we left and went to Level 131. I just so happened to get in for free because I'm one sly guy :) Saw a ton of my Myers friends there which was great. We didn't leave until it closed which was rather awkward. Staying until a club closes is just weird. And now I'm back in my room, bored, about to go to Ryan G's room. :D
Caleb and I then got ready to go to some drag show, which was lame, with his boyfriend, Chris Stokes, Dustin B and his boyfriend. Absolutely not fun. I was throwing up Cobra Ones all night! Carrie and Michelle finally arrived downtown and I met them at Buddha Bar. It was pretty fun. I had never been before and it was fairly interesting. Then Carrie and I just felt the uncontrollable urge to dance so we left and went to Level 131. I just so happened to get in for free because I'm one sly guy :) Saw a ton of my Myers friends there which was great. We didn't leave until it closed which was rather awkward. Staying until a club closes is just weird. And now I'm back in my room, bored, about to go to Ryan G's room. :D
Friday, March 21, 2008
A Trip to Kroger
Well, yesterday wasn't too interesting but I did meet someone new, Jonathan C. I met him through my friend Josh would could be a good or not so good thing. I keep telling myself and my friends that if I date someone I would want to meet them outside of the internet, preferably through a mutual friend. He was pretty cute and funny. I suppose he has some interest in me as well because he did send me a message last night wanting me to nap at his place because he met me while I was napping at Josh's but he seems a little forward and to just possibly want a hook-up. He did want to have a three way cuddle fest with me and Josh last night. But I don't know. It's still a toss up.
Oh yeah. So I stayed the night with Josh last night. I had to wait for Dustin W. to leave, who btw is the incarnation of all that is evil. Then Josh and I hung out for a bit until his roommate called wanting to go to Snelling. I didn't want to go at first and Josh had homework but it turned out to be quite a night. Basically, sitting at our table, you were either drunk, high or gay. Having 7 there, it turned into quite the little party. Afterwards, we went back to Josh's casa and hung out some more while he attempted to do homework. And then... dun dun dun... Jonathan came over. He claims it was to help Josh with homework but we all know what his true intentions were. Before he left he asked to cuddle with Josh and so they did while I tried to sleep. They remarked on how lonely I looked but I was honestly okay with not being cuddled with at 3 45 in the morning since I had to be up at 8. Jonathan left at 4 and then finally one was able to sleep. Yay for running on 4 hours of sleep and having not napped once this week.
Oh yeah. So I stayed the night with Josh last night. I had to wait for Dustin W. to leave, who btw is the incarnation of all that is evil. Then Josh and I hung out for a bit until his roommate called wanting to go to Snelling. I didn't want to go at first and Josh had homework but it turned out to be quite a night. Basically, sitting at our table, you were either drunk, high or gay. Having 7 there, it turned into quite the little party. Afterwards, we went back to Josh's casa and hung out some more while he attempted to do homework. And then... dun dun dun... Jonathan came over. He claims it was to help Josh with homework but we all know what his true intentions were. Before he left he asked to cuddle with Josh and so they did while I tried to sleep. They remarked on how lonely I looked but I was honestly okay with not being cuddled with at 3 45 in the morning since I had to be up at 8. Jonathan left at 4 and then finally one was able to sleep. Yay for running on 4 hours of sleep and having not napped once this week.
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
Still Creepy
Let me just start by mentioning that the Ryan I've been hanging out with recently is definitely not the same Ryan I had issues with earlier. That was Ryan F. Now it's Ryan G. Now that the confusion is cleared up, let me continue on to my day.
Nothing happened. I guess I feel as if the only things that are interesting or worth writing about in my day are guy struggles. Jen, Chelsea and I did talk about relationships and I'm a little more insightful now. :) Other than that I went to two blue card events today, didn't do laundry, didn't study, ate dinner with a bunch of friends (more so than usual) and kind of stalked two targets. I'm so close to discovering Target 1's identity! I really am a creeper. I probably have some psychological problem.
Nothing happened. I guess I feel as if the only things that are interesting or worth writing about in my day are guy struggles. Jen, Chelsea and I did talk about relationships and I'm a little more insightful now. :) Other than that I went to two blue card events today, didn't do laundry, didn't study, ate dinner with a bunch of friends (more so than usual) and kind of stalked two targets. I'm so close to discovering Target 1's identity! I really am a creeper. I probably have some psychological problem.
Tuesday, March 18, 2008
Soap Opera
Apparently Ryan G. likes me more than I had originally anticipated. He texted me today talking about last night. I saw him at dinner again and he winked at me. I jokingly made a disgusted face and then laughed. He laughed as well so I thought he got it. Evidently not. He texted me again an hour later talking about how awkward dinner was and how I made him feel bad... He. Has. A. Boyfriend. The end.
I went to Josh's house to 'study' but I conveniently didn't have the book I needed so I couldn't study. That's the excuse I'm using now. I really didn't want to study. So I just played video games. Old video games are either really hard and stupid or just too easy and stupid. Either way they're pretty stupid. I beat one in about 30 minutes and couldn't get off the second stage in about 3 others. Grr. It doesn't matter. I still kicked ass at Diddy Kong Racing. Mostly.
Found out today, rather abruptly I might add, that Dyllan has practically sold his body to the internet, more specifically, the art of webcamming. And of course when he texted me asking me if I was okay with it I subtly said no and added that I couldn't do anything about it. And, being so easy, when he asked if I still wanted to go on a date with him, I said yes. He called me beautiful though. What was I supposed to do?
I'm starting to realize my life is a gay soap opera.
I went to Josh's house to 'study' but I conveniently didn't have the book I needed so I couldn't study. That's the excuse I'm using now. I really didn't want to study. So I just played video games. Old video games are either really hard and stupid or just too easy and stupid. Either way they're pretty stupid. I beat one in about 30 minutes and couldn't get off the second stage in about 3 others. Grr. It doesn't matter. I still kicked ass at Diddy Kong Racing. Mostly.
Found out today, rather abruptly I might add, that Dyllan has practically sold his body to the internet, more specifically, the art of webcamming. And of course when he texted me asking me if I was okay with it I subtly said no and added that I couldn't do anything about it. And, being so easy, when he asked if I still wanted to go on a date with him, I said yes. He called me beautiful though. What was I supposed to do?
I'm starting to realize my life is a gay soap opera.
Little Homewrecker
Classes started yesterday. I think I forgot to mention that while at Josh's casa I fell down his stairs and hurt my bum. Well, yesterday I fell up some stairs on the way to class and hurt my hand. I suck at walking :(
Justin Smith of UGA, who has a boyfriend, texted me yesterday wanted to basically have a mini party with just the two of us and get drunk. And I'm sure we can all guess what would have happened had he been able to. He would have cheated on his boyfriend again. That's what would have happened.
I hadn't seen Ryan Gray in quite some time, with Spring Break and everything, and so I Facebooked him saying so. So, some friends and I go to Snelling later to eat dinner and who should be there, besides everyone else I know, but Ryan. So we both remark on the little coincidence and brush it aside. After dance and a second dinner, Kelley came over and we watched Dark Passage, a 40's movie. It was pretty good but IMDB kind of lied to me about the synopsis and gave me false hopes. All through the movie Ryan and I were pseudo-suggestively texting each other and after the movie we decided to hang out. So I go to his place and we listen to music for a while then we start watching TV. Then, we start playing footsies. Oh yeah. He has a boyfriend as well. After quite some time, we switch positions on the futon to ones that are more comfortable to sleep in. Footsies continue and then he starts to scratch my back. But nothing escalates past that because I believe we both know that even if little things like that happen, bigger things won't happen. Hard to explain but basically things will more than likely not happen between us. I stayed the night and have just recently returned back to my room.
I knew things would get more interesting once school started back.
Justin Smith of UGA, who has a boyfriend, texted me yesterday wanted to basically have a mini party with just the two of us and get drunk. And I'm sure we can all guess what would have happened had he been able to. He would have cheated on his boyfriend again. That's what would have happened.
I hadn't seen Ryan Gray in quite some time, with Spring Break and everything, and so I Facebooked him saying so. So, some friends and I go to Snelling later to eat dinner and who should be there, besides everyone else I know, but Ryan. So we both remark on the little coincidence and brush it aside. After dance and a second dinner, Kelley came over and we watched Dark Passage, a 40's movie. It was pretty good but IMDB kind of lied to me about the synopsis and gave me false hopes. All through the movie Ryan and I were pseudo-suggestively texting each other and after the movie we decided to hang out. So I go to his place and we listen to music for a while then we start watching TV. Then, we start playing footsies. Oh yeah. He has a boyfriend as well. After quite some time, we switch positions on the futon to ones that are more comfortable to sleep in. Footsies continue and then he starts to scratch my back. But nothing escalates past that because I believe we both know that even if little things like that happen, bigger things won't happen. Hard to explain but basically things will more than likely not happen between us. I stayed the night and have just recently returned back to my room.
I knew things would get more interesting once school started back.
Sunday, March 16, 2008
Spring Break Day 9 - Athens - Final Day
Today was the last day of Spring Break. As with the rest of my Spring Break -- nothing really happened. Drove back to Athens which was a major plus plus. Unpacked (well, mostly) and ate with BeMack sans Michelle who wasn't back yet. It was really great to get to finally see everyone again and to share all of our wonderful stories. I really did miss them. For some reason, I thought over the course of 9 days that I had some how changed and that everyone else did as well. I'm glad to see we're all still the same :)
After dinner, I went to Josh's house to hang out with him. Then, we went to Jason's house so Jason could eat. Ended up playing Super Smash Bros. Brawl. It was fun but I wasn't very good at it. Mind you it was my first time and I wasn't really trying. Josh and I then went back to his place and started romping around. It sounds dirty. And it would have been were we both naked, without the covers and it a certain position. But we weren't. Then he receives the dreaded IM from Dustin and that pretty much takes up the rest of the night. Although he was chatting with Geremy, who seems super cool, and Ben, who introduced me to a new song that I've already downloaded. But, alas, it got very late and I to depart eventually. Good-bye SB08. I probably won't miss you.
After dinner, I went to Josh's house to hang out with him. Then, we went to Jason's house so Jason could eat. Ended up playing Super Smash Bros. Brawl. It was fun but I wasn't very good at it. Mind you it was my first time and I wasn't really trying. Josh and I then went back to his place and started romping around. It sounds dirty. And it would have been were we both naked, without the covers and it a certain position. But we weren't. Then he receives the dreaded IM from Dustin and that pretty much takes up the rest of the night. Although he was chatting with Geremy, who seems super cool, and Ben, who introduced me to a new song that I've already downloaded. But, alas, it got very late and I to depart eventually. Good-bye SB08. I probably won't miss you.
Saturday, March 15, 2008
Spring Break Day 8 - Fayetteville
So. Nothing happened today. Emily and I basically just sat around and watched TV all day. It was a very relaxed day. Justin failed to respond to me so it doesn't look like I'll be getting my gas money for a while. Dyllan is more than likely going to come to UGA to see me next weekend so that should be fun. Hopefully next week when I'm back at school my blog will be interesting again :)
Spring Break Day 8 - Fayetteville/Stockbridge/Atlanta
So we drove the couple hours from Valdosta to Fayetteville yesterday stopping a couple times for food and gas and even once to turn around because we passed our exit. We eventually made it though. No worries. Not long after I arrived, I called Justin who seemed excited to hear from me. I apparently didn't scare him off :) We made plans to hang out later that night because his friend was having a party which turned into us going to a friend's surprise party. Justin calls me back at about 7 30 and I make my preparations to leave. On the road at 8.
It's late and dark. I'm tired. So I set out for an adventure. I'm not really sure about where I'm going but I have handy Mapquest to guide me. I didn't get lost once going to where Justin was but apparently I was misinformed about where to go so they had to come and get me. We went back to Philip's place and everyone, Philip, Justin, Megan and Austin, was complaining about not having alcohol... High schoolers... I wasn't really planning on drinking anyways so I just chose to be the designated driver. We have to stop my Megan's house to pick up something and right before we get there we hear of tornadoes in downtown Atlanta - close to where we're going. So everyone calls their parents, half jokingly but definitely with a serious intent, to tell them we love them. The storm dies before we get to Atlanta but right before we get to the party we almost die of other reasons.
I'm turning left at a minimal sight distance spot. Well, from what I can tell it's clear so I go as fast as I can. The car coming at me was seemingly thinking, "Let's go as fast as I can as well." Screaming ensues and I floor it. Luckily there wasn't a car in the lane I was turning into. All was well in the end.
The party was alright. I saw a lot of my old friends from all over. Apparently I'm not hated as much as I thought. Or everyone is really fake but I don't believe that. Austin had to leave early so it took us about thirty minutes to drag Justin and Philip out the door. Long story short -- Justin was pretty much all over me not wanting to leave, he's going to stay with Austin because Justin has to be up early, Justin and I make out and say our good-byes, I have to drive back to Emily's house at 1 45 in the morning, got lost a couple of times and took a few wrong turns, made it back at 2 30, sleep. What a fun night...
It's late and dark. I'm tired. So I set out for an adventure. I'm not really sure about where I'm going but I have handy Mapquest to guide me. I didn't get lost once going to where Justin was but apparently I was misinformed about where to go so they had to come and get me. We went back to Philip's place and everyone, Philip, Justin, Megan and Austin, was complaining about not having alcohol... High schoolers... I wasn't really planning on drinking anyways so I just chose to be the designated driver. We have to stop my Megan's house to pick up something and right before we get there we hear of tornadoes in downtown Atlanta - close to where we're going. So everyone calls their parents, half jokingly but definitely with a serious intent, to tell them we love them. The storm dies before we get to Atlanta but right before we get to the party we almost die of other reasons.
I'm turning left at a minimal sight distance spot. Well, from what I can tell it's clear so I go as fast as I can. The car coming at me was seemingly thinking, "Let's go as fast as I can as well." Screaming ensues and I floor it. Luckily there wasn't a car in the lane I was turning into. All was well in the end.
The party was alright. I saw a lot of my old friends from all over. Apparently I'm not hated as much as I thought. Or everyone is really fake but I don't believe that. Austin had to leave early so it took us about thirty minutes to drag Justin and Philip out the door. Long story short -- Justin was pretty much all over me not wanting to leave, he's going to stay with Austin because Justin has to be up early, Justin and I make out and say our good-byes, I have to drive back to Emily's house at 1 45 in the morning, got lost a couple of times and took a few wrong turns, made it back at 2 30, sleep. What a fun night...
Thursday, March 13, 2008
Spring Break Day 7 - Valdosta 3
We finally left Key West and arrived in Valdosta at about 8 30. Not much went on during the drive. Pretty boring actually. I'm just glad I finally have my own room I can escape to. Mum ordered pizza at 8 and it didn't come until after 9, much to my dismay as I had basically not eaten all day. Finished watching Across the Universe with mum. Very boring day as nine hours of it were spent on the road. And, good news, we leave again tomorrow for Atlanta.
Key West was basically a total bust. The money spent didn't even put a dent in how much fun I should have had. But it's over and there's nothing I can do about it. I did meet some interesting people but no random hook ups or anything. I'll know better for next year. I can't wait to just be back at school.
So a boy update to make this post a little longer. Ryan is having a delightful time in NY/DC. He didn't tell me but Sarah did. I really should just let go. Justin of UGA sent a drunken text saying he loved me while I was in Key West. Slightly awkward. He apologized the next day. Cain sent what I'm assuming was a drunken text wanting me to be with him even though he was Destin and I was in Key West. Starting to get the impression I'm just wanted for hook ups. Dyllan, who I do like and and likes me as well, lives too far away and will be going to school in my hometown next year which is even further away. I believe I pushed the other Justin away by having the very bad habit of being clingy. Damn me. Caleb and I are still friends. And those are all I can think of at the moment.
Key West was basically a total bust. The money spent didn't even put a dent in how much fun I should have had. But it's over and there's nothing I can do about it. I did meet some interesting people but no random hook ups or anything. I'll know better for next year. I can't wait to just be back at school.
So a boy update to make this post a little longer. Ryan is having a delightful time in NY/DC. He didn't tell me but Sarah did. I really should just let go. Justin of UGA sent a drunken text saying he loved me while I was in Key West. Slightly awkward. He apologized the next day. Cain sent what I'm assuming was a drunken text wanting me to be with him even though he was Destin and I was in Key West. Starting to get the impression I'm just wanted for hook ups. Dyllan, who I do like and and likes me as well, lives too far away and will be going to school in my hometown next year which is even further away. I believe I pushed the other Justin away by having the very bad habit of being clingy. Damn me. Caleb and I are still friends. And those are all I can think of at the moment.
Wednesday, March 12, 2008
Spring Break Day 6 - Key West 3
Today was the first day where there was actually no rain. So we woke up early and tanned by the pool. Well, Emily and I kind of just burned but no big. I was reading Chronicles of Narnia and they didn't want to wait for me to finish 10 whole pages of the first book so they left for the beach without me. It's fine. I've failed to mention that Justin and I are sort of talking. So while they were at the beach we chatted. He's 16 and still in high school... Don't judge. He's cute. And he's taking AP Chem so that must mean he's smart...well smartish. After they got back from the beach we just lounged around and got ready for sunset. It was very ish. There were clouds and boats in the way so it wasn't super fantastic. But we did see a super hotty. Emily got a pic. Go Emily! :)
At at Hard Rock after sunset and there was some band playing so we watched that while eating. Did minimal shopping. Went back to the room to get ready to go out. Go out. Not very fun but to top the night off Donna lost her fake to a doorman. Go Donna! Definitely ended our night early. So now were back and I just got off the phone with my Valentine, Kelley <3
We leave tomorrow. I'm so excited. The sooner I can get away from her the better. We're not even going to see my high school spring musical now. This. Trip. Won't. End. Fast. Enough.
At at Hard Rock after sunset and there was some band playing so we watched that while eating. Did minimal shopping. Went back to the room to get ready to go out. Go out. Not very fun but to top the night off Donna lost her fake to a doorman. Go Donna! Definitely ended our night early. So now were back and I just got off the phone with my Valentine, Kelley <3
We leave tomorrow. I'm so excited. The sooner I can get away from her the better. We're not even going to see my high school spring musical now. This. Trip. Won't. End. Fast. Enough.
Tuesday, March 11, 2008
Spring Break Day 5 - Key West 2
Emily and Donna decided last night they wanted to get massages. So Donna went down this morning at about 8 to set an appointment and she comes back and tells us it's at 11 45. Being the responsible one that I am, I set my alarm for 11 20 because I know that they aren't going to wake themselves up. I wake them up and they go down there to find out the appointment was really at 11 15. Oh well. Got some good reading time in by the pool while they were massaged. Then for lunch we went to TGIFs where I'm pretty sure the guy who worked there was checking me out. But of course I didn't act on anything and so we left.
It rained for a good part of the day so we didn't do much. We went down to the pool for a bit but I got tired so I went up to the room and napped for a majority of the day. Donna and Emily went to the beach where they met some guys and played flip cup and what not. McDonalds for dinner. Hurray Key West! Their turn to nap and I woke them up again at 10 so they could get ready to go out. Met some really awesome people from UGA on the shuttle to downtown. Apparently our hotel is filled with nothing but students from UGA. There are so many down here. Went to Sloppy Joe's again where Go Go Gadget was playing again. They'll be here all week if you're wondering. After that we went to Rick's. It's a pretty cool place. It's absolutely huge! It's like 3 or so bars in one. We met some really cool people from Michigan there.
And now we're back because Emily felt nasty. Definitely faught over what we were going to watch on TV. I won so now they're sleeping. Oh wellz. Our trip has mostly been about what they wanted to do so I could at least get that. I have never wanted to leave a vacation so much and return back to Valdosta. This trip has seriously resulted in minimal fun. Tomorrow is the last night in Key West.
It rained for a good part of the day so we didn't do much. We went down to the pool for a bit but I got tired so I went up to the room and napped for a majority of the day. Donna and Emily went to the beach where they met some guys and played flip cup and what not. McDonalds for dinner. Hurray Key West! Their turn to nap and I woke them up again at 10 so they could get ready to go out. Met some really awesome people from UGA on the shuttle to downtown. Apparently our hotel is filled with nothing but students from UGA. There are so many down here. Went to Sloppy Joe's again where Go Go Gadget was playing again. They'll be here all week if you're wondering. After that we went to Rick's. It's a pretty cool place. It's absolutely huge! It's like 3 or so bars in one. We met some really cool people from Michigan there.
And now we're back because Emily felt nasty. Definitely faught over what we were going to watch on TV. I won so now they're sleeping. Oh wellz. Our trip has mostly been about what they wanted to do so I could at least get that. I have never wanted to leave a vacation so much and return back to Valdosta. This trip has seriously resulted in minimal fun. Tomorrow is the last night in Key West.
Monday, March 10, 2008
Spring Break Day 4 - Key West
Well, we woke up early (very early) to drive to Key West. Woke up about 2 30, left about 4, arived about 1ish. The drive wasn't too terribly bad or long. I slept for a good part of it. Didn't have to drive any so that was good although I wouldn't have minded. We finally arrived at the resort and there were three people who could have check us in. I wanted the one to the far right so I could use some sort of charm on him. Afterall, he was the best looking out of the three. Good thing we got him because apparently you have to be 21 or older or have someone that is to check in. He let us check in anyways but missed out on giving us information. It's okay. The other guy said he was new.
After arriving the first thing we do on our super fun vacation is...sleep! We woke up and decided to go eat and walk down Duval Street (downtown). So we did that. Check out the scene. It was cool. Proceeded to go back to the room and get ready for the downtownness. Asked the guy at the front desk some questions. They're going to know us by name eventually because we (well I) keep going up there to ask questions. Downtown was fun. Took us forever to decide where we wanted to go but once we did it was cool. Used my fake for the first time to get into Sloppy Joe's. It was nice. There was a really cool band that played a variety of songs. I believe their name was Go Go Gadget. The lead singer was cute but he had a really high pitched voice.
This trip definitely isn't as fun as I had anticipated. Certain people are hindering my fun dramatically. But I'm not going to complain -- I'm just going to try and have the best time that I can.
After arriving the first thing we do on our super fun vacation is...sleep! We woke up and decided to go eat and walk down Duval Street (downtown). So we did that. Check out the scene. It was cool. Proceeded to go back to the room and get ready for the downtownness. Asked the guy at the front desk some questions. They're going to know us by name eventually because we (well I) keep going up there to ask questions. Downtown was fun. Took us forever to decide where we wanted to go but once we did it was cool. Used my fake for the first time to get into Sloppy Joe's. It was nice. There was a really cool band that played a variety of songs. I believe their name was Go Go Gadget. The lead singer was cute but he had a really high pitched voice.
This trip definitely isn't as fun as I had anticipated. Certain people are hindering my fun dramatically. But I'm not going to complain -- I'm just going to try and have the best time that I can.
Sunday, March 9, 2008
Spring Break Day 3 - Valdosta 2
Today was definitely the best day of SB08 so far! I got a fake ID! I know. Everyone is thinking, "Yeah right. Barrett would never get a fake." But I did! Woot! The rest of the day was ish. Got to finally sleep late. Visited my brother, his girlfriend, and my baby neice. She's too cute! Afterwards the fam, Em, and Donna all went to Texas Roadhouse. When we got back home we watched A Goofy Movie. Well, my mom and I watched it while Emily and Donna slept. Emily and I then went to Wal-Mart to get face wash and my fake from Jason, who is absolutely amazing! Now we're back and are watching Sleeping Beauty and then I can only imagine we're going to bed because we have to wake up so early to go to Key West! Yaaaaay! Oh yeah. It's Gay Spring Break in Key West. Enough said.
Spring Break Day 2 - Valdosta
Since I forgot to update last night, this will be yesterday's blog.
In the morning we did our daily yawns and stretches, showered, got ready, etc. Then we waited for Donna to show up at Emily's house -- the clan was complete. We met Carrie at Partners II Pizza. After eating we started our 3+ hour drive to Valdosta. Naturally, on any road trip, you have to stop at a sketch gas station. Our road trip was no exception. It wasn't as bad as it could have been but it was still...icky? When we got into Valdosta we stopped at my high school to see a talent show. It was pretty goodish. I saw a ton of my old friends and that was worth it. Free ice cream after that from my bestest friend Jarred. Then home and we basically lounged forever. Jarred wanted us to go to Club Paradise but no one wants to pay $14 for a very ish club. Oh well. Maybe today will be more exciting.
In the morning we did our daily yawns and stretches, showered, got ready, etc. Then we waited for Donna to show up at Emily's house -- the clan was complete. We met Carrie at Partners II Pizza. After eating we started our 3+ hour drive to Valdosta. Naturally, on any road trip, you have to stop at a sketch gas station. Our road trip was no exception. It wasn't as bad as it could have been but it was still...icky? When we got into Valdosta we stopped at my high school to see a talent show. It was pretty goodish. I saw a ton of my old friends and that was worth it. Free ice cream after that from my bestest friend Jarred. Then home and we basically lounged forever. Jarred wanted us to go to Club Paradise but no one wants to pay $14 for a very ish club. Oh well. Maybe today will be more exciting.
Friday, March 7, 2008
Spring Break Day 1 - Fayetteville
Today was my last day of class before SB08!! Needless to say, but I will anyways, I am super excited! Nothing really happened last night. A bunch of us just sat around and had a really grand time getting our drink on. It was a lot of fun but I didn't get back until really last so very tired I am. Did laundry, packed, ate and then was on my way to begin SB08 with Emily! Short post because obvs nothing happened today. I drove Emily and her sister Heather to Fayetteville where Emily and I begin our journey. Donna will be joining us tomorrow and I believe we're eating lunch with Carrie before we continue on to stage 2 of our trip -- Valdosta. Since I'm so incredibly tired, I'm going to go watch TV then bed, yo. Happy Spring Break!
Thursday, March 6, 2008
Got My Hair Did Today
I decided to get my hair done today. Yesterday, I had discussed with Jamie, who now goes to the same place (Republic Salon) and has the same stylist (Mindy) as me, and Calley about what I should do with my hair. We decided a cut and some color would do. So I made my appointment yesterday and I go in today. I walk in and do the usual,"Hi! Appointment at 4 with Mindy" "Please have a seat on the couches. Would you like a drink?" "No thank you!" *Cheesey smile* So I go to sit on the couches and mister dreamy mysterious man walks past me and I'm like, "Oh my god. Please do my hair." Well... I thought it. I sit for a bit. Kind of boring. Then, he walks up to me states that he's going to wash my hair. I'm totally being repayed for working at the food bank yesterday. Thank you God. :)
So, he's massaging my scalp with his angelic hands and when he starts to rinse (the first time) he says, "Let me know if it gets too hot for you." I honestly didn't know what to say so I waited the appropriate 7 seconds and started laughing so it appeared as if it were about something else. So that's done. I get my hair cut. He's standing behind my stylist the whole time. No big deal. I go to get my hair highlighted. He mixed the paint. Tinfoil was promptly stuck to my head in awkward places. Everything's done and I'm just sitting there waiting for my hair to finish. I'll be damned if mister mysterious man doesn't go and wash someone else's hair right in front of me! How could he betray me?! I was utterly appalled. But it's okay. She had a water stain on the neck of her shirt from the wash. Haha, bitch. He then comes up to me and tells me it's time for him to wash my hair. I knew he would never cheat on me. He's just doing his job. While he was washing, he initiates conversation. It was nice. He's really cool. I can't believe I've gone this long without talking about myself. My new hair makes me look pretty hot. The end.
I proposed to Jen today on the quad. Going to a social gathering with friends later. Will probably write about it tomorrow as I will be too tired tonight. SB08 tomorrow! Super excited. Suh-weet :)
Wednesday, March 5, 2008
I Did Good Things Today
Well, nothing really happened today so I basically hung out at all of the different dining halls. It was fun. I love my friends. I did, in fact, volunteer at the Food Bank last minute. Calley saw me in the hall when we were both searching for our friends who all seemed to disappear at once and she invited me to go with her. It was a lot of fun. Yay for volunteering and doing good deeds. That is my one for the week.
Caleb and I did in fact hang out today. It was very nice. He ate with Kelley, Emily and me and they all seemed to get along quite nicely. We then went to his room and just talked. His roommate was there. He's nice. Kind of awkward. Nothing sexual happened between me and Caleb and I'm not sure if it was because his roommate was there or if he really respected my decision to not do anything else with him. Who knows? I still gave him the condom that was in my pocket. We'll probably use it later.
I must say that I'm very glad more people are reading my blog and commenting :). If Anonymous just so happens to want to eat lunch with me, then I'll be at Snelling tomorrow from 12 to 12 30 eating/reading a book. Same for Friday but at O house. I would very much be interested in meeting said person who happens to read my blog (anonymous). If not, then I'll be forced to assume you're some creeper who just found my blog my mistake and enjoys reading and commenting on it--which is greatly appreciated. :D
SB08 in two days! Oh em gee! Can't wait for Key West with the Ems and Donna. So so so very excited!
Tuesday, March 4, 2008
I'm a Creeper
So, I found out today that three people read my blog. Count them. Three! Well at least three different people have commented. Anonymous - I'm looking for love in the right places, aka honors residence hall, but just not the right people apparently. And if love is right in front of me, it's only half my fault I'm so oblivious and can't see it. Maybe love should be a little more noticeable. But, alas, that would make the world less complicated and we can't very well live with that. Our heads would explode.
Well, Caleb and I are hanging out for the greater part of the day tomorrow. He's eating lunch with Kelley, Emily and me. Kelley was perturbed because I'm supposed to be over him but Emily is excited to meet the person who "bruised" me. Even after everything I think Caleb and I could/will be really good friends.
There was an extremely dreamy guy named Matt who worked at Blockbuster that Kelley, Carrie and I would pseudo-stalk. We would go to Blockbuster and rent movies in hopes that he would be there. The past couple of times he hasn't been there and so we would leave empty-handed. Due to my expert stalking skills and to the fact that I know so many people, I find out today, through someone who worked with him, that he transferred to another location. How could you not tell us Matt? Do you really not like us that much? Did you think we wouldn't find out? But it's okay. We know where you are now and your last name. Let the Facebook stalking ensue!
Kelley and I do a lot together I just realized. I'm actually about to go eat with her. We should just get married. Sorry Michelle. I may be gay but I'm a male and our type of marriage would at least be legal. :)
Well, Caleb and I are hanging out for the greater part of the day tomorrow. He's eating lunch with Kelley, Emily and me. Kelley was perturbed because I'm supposed to be over him but Emily is excited to meet the person who "bruised" me. Even after everything I think Caleb and I could/will be really good friends.
There was an extremely dreamy guy named Matt who worked at Blockbuster that Kelley, Carrie and I would pseudo-stalk. We would go to Blockbuster and rent movies in hopes that he would be there. The past couple of times he hasn't been there and so we would leave empty-handed. Due to my expert stalking skills and to the fact that I know so many people, I find out today, through someone who worked with him, that he transferred to another location. How could you not tell us Matt? Do you really not like us that much? Did you think we wouldn't find out? But it's okay. We know where you are now and your last name. Let the Facebook stalking ensue!
Kelley and I do a lot together I just realized. I'm actually about to go eat with her. We should just get married. Sorry Michelle. I may be gay but I'm a male and our type of marriage would at least be legal. :)
Monday, March 3, 2008
Killer Apprehended
Like every other Monday, I have dance at 7:45. On the way to dance, a rampage of cop cars goes flying by me. Some pass. I move up. More pass. I think little of it until after dance when I went to eat with my friends. Emily was sitting in Creswell, my residence hall, waiting for Ms. Kelley, so they could leave for dinner, and a cop goes into the lobby asking the desk person if they had seen a person with a bloody face and tennis shoes. Thankfully they had not but the thought on everyone's mind is that there's a man on the loose. When I got back to the hall, I got an email stating that there was a shooting and the suspect ran to the high-rises, the very location of my hall. You'd think they would let students know of trivial events such as that one. Oh well. He's been caught. Everyone can sleep at night.
But back to the events of my life: Last night, Josh knew I was bored, he has a knack for things like that I suppose, so he invites me to go eat with him and Phillip. I decided to drive them and I even ended up having to choose where we ate. Josh bought dinner. I got an Oreo frosty. It was divine. Thanks Josh! :)
I decided yesterday that I had had my fill of Caleb and wasn't going to pursue or initiate anything with him. I wouldn't mind continuing an affair with him but I just don't feel 100% right doing it. After all, what kind of person am I? I'm no Texan hussy. These thoughts were of course thrown aside when he texted me today. This is clearly a sign he's still interested. I'm so easy.
But back to the events of my life: Last night, Josh knew I was bored, he has a knack for things like that I suppose, so he invites me to go eat with him and Phillip. I decided to drive them and I even ended up having to choose where we ate. Josh bought dinner. I got an Oreo frosty. It was divine. Thanks Josh! :)
I decided yesterday that I had had my fill of Caleb and wasn't going to pursue or initiate anything with him. I wouldn't mind continuing an affair with him but I just don't feel 100% right doing it. After all, what kind of person am I? I'm no Texan hussy. These thoughts were of course thrown aside when he texted me today. This is clearly a sign he's still interested. I'm so easy.
Sunday, March 2, 2008
What a Night (slightly pornographic)
Well, last night was interesting to say the least. It was one of the greatest and (possibly) the worst nights ever. You'll see why it's 'possibly' at the end.
Being the oh so boring and often bored person that I am, I decided to bake cookies for friends who decided they didn't even want them after I finished. Oh well. So I decided to spend my night with my Valentine, Kelley. A little about Kelley before I continue. She is the MOST amazing person in the world. She is everything that everyone aspires to be. This girl does not have a single flaw. I have a list of horrible things I've made her do that include but are not limited to convincing her to park in a handicapped spot resulting in a $100 fine, almost getting her run over by cars (twice) and making her go to downtown to very sketch Level 131. But I'm going to stop raving about such a wonderful person and continue the story of my night. Oh yeah. One more thing. She has huge boobs! :D
Kelley and I decided to venture to the land of Myers and be bored with Erika who is also another amazing person. FYI - I know a lot of amazing people. Erika convinced Kelley and me to watch the movie "Wit" with Emma Thompson. She just happens to be one of my favorite actresses. After finishing the movie and drying our tears, Kelley and I proceeded to leave. Upon returning to Creswell, I went to Rebecca's room to basically meet Caleb. Finally.
I enter the room and they're watching Across the Universe so I finish watching it with them. After the movie Caleb just happens to mention he has red-green color blindness. I was in love (platonically of course). This was then added to a list, following adopted people and twins, of traits I'm slightly obsessed about. The conversation lasts for about an hour or so until we are rudely interrupted by a sleeping Rebecca's flatulence. "Oh. Hey. What's up guys?" Probably the funniest moment of the night. After about two hours, we finally calmed down and decided to go to bed. Things then proceeded to get interesting.
Caleb and I having no where else to sleep decided to lay on the futon together. Of course being in such close proximity things start to happen. It started at our feet. We caressed each other with our toes and feet for some time. Then, my hand found its way to his back and I started to run it up and down his spine which happened to be quite the turn on for him. His hand seemed to then find its way to my body and rubbing, stroking, massaging began. After much sexual tension, we began to kiss. He's a biter. I'm unable to determine whether this was a turn on or not but he seemed to like it so I bit back. Rebecca and Jasmyn, her roommate, made some weird noises and it was quite the mood killer so Caleb and I stopped and talked. Being about 8 15 we decided to leave and get some food. O house is a wonder at 8 30 in the morning. And then Myers.
Entering his room we picked up where we left off in Creswell. Making out and biting continued. Then, completely unexpected, clothes were shed. Nudeness ensued. It was quite arousing I must say. After a couple hours of this, our bodies too tired to carry on, we fell asleep. Naked body against naked body. Upon waking up several hours later, I decided to wake him up my running my fingers along his body. Sparking the flare yet again, we continued as if never taking a break. And then, right in the heat of the moment, as we're kind of conversing between kisses, he decides to mention he had mono last week. Really? Now is the time you want to mention this? Not much you can do after that so we just lounged around enjoying each others presence. The mood was gone. So we hung out for quite some time in his room, kissing when appropriate. If I'm going to get mono then it's already too late so I might as well have a little fun still. Oh yeah. And I have a wonderful hickey to commemorate the night.
Spring Break in one week. Key West in one week. Mono takes about a week. Should be the best Spring Break ever!
On to a much lighter note - huge group of friends and I are eating dinner tonight and going to see "The Other Boleyn Girl." I'm super excited. We're probably going to discuss my sexual excursions. Shall be great fun. :)
Being the oh so boring and often bored person that I am, I decided to bake cookies for friends who decided they didn't even want them after I finished. Oh well. So I decided to spend my night with my Valentine, Kelley. A little about Kelley before I continue. She is the MOST amazing person in the world. She is everything that everyone aspires to be. This girl does not have a single flaw. I have a list of horrible things I've made her do that include but are not limited to convincing her to park in a handicapped spot resulting in a $100 fine, almost getting her run over by cars (twice) and making her go to downtown to very sketch Level 131. But I'm going to stop raving about such a wonderful person and continue the story of my night. Oh yeah. One more thing. She has huge boobs! :D
Kelley and I decided to venture to the land of Myers and be bored with Erika who is also another amazing person. FYI - I know a lot of amazing people. Erika convinced Kelley and me to watch the movie "Wit" with Emma Thompson. She just happens to be one of my favorite actresses. After finishing the movie and drying our tears, Kelley and I proceeded to leave. Upon returning to Creswell, I went to Rebecca's room to basically meet Caleb. Finally.
I enter the room and they're watching Across the Universe so I finish watching it with them. After the movie Caleb just happens to mention he has red-green color blindness. I was in love (platonically of course). This was then added to a list, following adopted people and twins, of traits I'm slightly obsessed about. The conversation lasts for about an hour or so until we are rudely interrupted by a sleeping Rebecca's flatulence. "Oh. Hey. What's up guys?" Probably the funniest moment of the night. After about two hours, we finally calmed down and decided to go to bed. Things then proceeded to get interesting.
Caleb and I having no where else to sleep decided to lay on the futon together. Of course being in such close proximity things start to happen. It started at our feet. We caressed each other with our toes and feet for some time. Then, my hand found its way to his back and I started to run it up and down his spine which happened to be quite the turn on for him. His hand seemed to then find its way to my body and rubbing, stroking, massaging began. After much sexual tension, we began to kiss. He's a biter. I'm unable to determine whether this was a turn on or not but he seemed to like it so I bit back. Rebecca and Jasmyn, her roommate, made some weird noises and it was quite the mood killer so Caleb and I stopped and talked. Being about 8 15 we decided to leave and get some food. O house is a wonder at 8 30 in the morning. And then Myers.
Entering his room we picked up where we left off in Creswell. Making out and biting continued. Then, completely unexpected, clothes were shed. Nudeness ensued. It was quite arousing I must say. After a couple hours of this, our bodies too tired to carry on, we fell asleep. Naked body against naked body. Upon waking up several hours later, I decided to wake him up my running my fingers along his body. Sparking the flare yet again, we continued as if never taking a break. And then, right in the heat of the moment, as we're kind of conversing between kisses, he decides to mention he had mono last week. Really? Now is the time you want to mention this? Not much you can do after that so we just lounged around enjoying each others presence. The mood was gone. So we hung out for quite some time in his room, kissing when appropriate. If I'm going to get mono then it's already too late so I might as well have a little fun still. Oh yeah. And I have a wonderful hickey to commemorate the night.
Spring Break in one week. Key West in one week. Mono takes about a week. Should be the best Spring Break ever!
On to a much lighter note - huge group of friends and I are eating dinner tonight and going to see "The Other Boleyn Girl." I'm super excited. We're probably going to discuss my sexual excursions. Shall be great fun. :)
Saturday, March 1, 2008
What a Day
Well, since this is my first blog, I suppose I'll start with some inspirational words: "Today is where your book begins. The rest is still unwritten." Thanks Nat for that heartfelt message. (We're on a first name basis just so you know) So, since today is the first of March I figured, "Start of a month, start of a blog." Now let me begin my fairly boring first post since nothing has really happened.
Today, like several other Saturdays this semester, marked the day of another Gym Dogs meet. It was the best and yet the worst all semester. Katie Heenan scored a perfect 10 on the vault! Hell yeah I was excited. Tears almost flowed. Then floor. It was tragic. After seeing Courtney Kupets fall off the beam I sensed something was going to happen. Sure enough--she falls while tumbling and became seriously injured. Doesn't look good for NCAA. Le sadness.
On to a lighter note--boy update: Ryan F. still hasn't said a word but is friends again with Chelsea, so maybe he's getting over himself. Caleb is becoming seemingly more interested. We'll see.
Now I'm going to sit here in my room listening to the annoying sounds of Step Up. I want to bake cookies but not if no one wants to eat them. I guess I'm going to read my Homecoming Committee Court Chair notebook now (sounds important because it is :D). Will definitely update more later if something happens. Ciao!
Today, like several other Saturdays this semester, marked the day of another Gym Dogs meet. It was the best and yet the worst all semester. Katie Heenan scored a perfect 10 on the vault! Hell yeah I was excited. Tears almost flowed. Then floor. It was tragic. After seeing Courtney Kupets fall off the beam I sensed something was going to happen. Sure enough--she falls while tumbling and became seriously injured. Doesn't look good for NCAA. Le sadness.
On to a lighter note--boy update: Ryan F. still hasn't said a word but is friends again with Chelsea, so maybe he's getting over himself. Caleb is becoming seemingly more interested. We'll see.
Now I'm going to sit here in my room listening to the annoying sounds of Step Up. I want to bake cookies but not if no one wants to eat them. I guess I'm going to read my Homecoming Committee Court Chair notebook now (sounds important because it is :D). Will definitely update more later if something happens. Ciao!
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