Well, I thought I had a change of heart but Justin S. (of UGA) really wanted to come over so how could I resist? He left about an hour ago. I would have updated sooner but I went to Kelley's room and I've been too busy updating my list, putting it in chronological order and adding new sections. Justin said he wanted to go down on me so I figured I would let him once and it would be out of his system. He came over and we kind of played on my bed and then I guess he did what he basically came to do and then we were done... Afterwards, we layed on my bed and cuddled.
He's kind of weird. He would look at me funny and when I would look at him he would quickly look away. I guess you could say he's very child-like. He's very short like one as well. I don't know. But I've been talking with Kelley and I think we've (well I've) decided that tomorrow being Easter is a great time to turn my life around. I apologize now if my blogs get boring from here on out :)
Saturday, March 22, 2008
Change of Heart
I do believe I've had another epiphany or revelation or whatever you normal people call it. Last night went exactly as expected but I didn't think I'd feel this way when it was over. After hearing about the problems one of my friends went through, her depression and how her father died, and then what happened last night, I've decided to become a genuinely better person. I don't know how it's going to happen but I suppose it can. I suppose I can start by doing less bad and more good. Anyways, on to the meat of the story.
Last night, Ryan G. was drunk and I knew it before I even texted him. One thing led to another and, oh, there I am in his room. He let it be known, before we even got back to his place, that he wasn't wearing underwear. He also conveniently happen to mention that he broke up with his boyfriend some time ago. So all of this time he didn't have a boyfriend... We got back and started watching TV and getting closer to each other. He would rub his hand on my arm or scratch my back. Then, of course, we started making out and slowly shedding the clothes. The TV is still on. I don't know about you but no matter what I'm doing, if that TV is on I'm going to watch/listen to it. We'd be making out, something funny would be said so I'd laugh. He insisted on keeping the TV on. So, finally I told him, "I'm not getting naked until the TV goes off." It's not like I'm uncomfortable with my body -- the full moon was seemingly emitting more light than the TV. The TV was just annoying.
We were rolling around on his futon, switching who was on top and who was on bottom. One of the times when I was on bottom, he went down on me. Let me tell ya, having someone else do it for you is so much more pleasurable than doing it yourself. I don't know why but I just won't go down on people. I've heard it really isn't that bad but I just can't bring myself to do it. So we finished without actually 'finishing' if you know what I mean and we just started to cuddle with me being the big spoon. Naked cuddling couldn't possibly lead to good things. Some pelvic thrusting began and next thing you know it was in. We. Were. Doing. It. It was very weird at first. Not at all what I was expecting. I was expecting some instant pleasure and not so much of some weird pressure. I didn't even realize it was in at first. But the whole time I couldn't help but think, "I think we're doing it. Are we doing it? It might be in. I think it's in! What are we doing?" We switched positions and things got a little better. Had we some lube I'm sure it would have been absolutely amazing! But the pleasure mixed with chaffing just didn't feel too nice. He then all of a sudden felt really bad so we stopped much to my dismay. It's fine though. We talked and I found out some very interesting information.
1. He thinks I'm a good kisser which is a major yay. It must be true because he's not the first who has told me. 2. It's not very attractive to discuss my list of boys I've been with. Surprisingly many people think I'm some innocent boy who is inexperienced and they find that more attractive. 3. Apparently all of Russell knew about my blog, at least the gays anyways. This is the reason it is now private and if you're reading it now it means I like you very very much and that you weren't lazy enough to blow off signing into Google. I might have learned more but I really don't remember so therefore I can't possibly care.
Last night, Ryan G. was drunk and I knew it before I even texted him. One thing led to another and, oh, there I am in his room. He let it be known, before we even got back to his place, that he wasn't wearing underwear. He also conveniently happen to mention that he broke up with his boyfriend some time ago. So all of this time he didn't have a boyfriend... We got back and started watching TV and getting closer to each other. He would rub his hand on my arm or scratch my back. Then, of course, we started making out and slowly shedding the clothes. The TV is still on. I don't know about you but no matter what I'm doing, if that TV is on I'm going to watch/listen to it. We'd be making out, something funny would be said so I'd laugh. He insisted on keeping the TV on. So, finally I told him, "I'm not getting naked until the TV goes off." It's not like I'm uncomfortable with my body -- the full moon was seemingly emitting more light than the TV. The TV was just annoying.
We were rolling around on his futon, switching who was on top and who was on bottom. One of the times when I was on bottom, he went down on me. Let me tell ya, having someone else do it for you is so much more pleasurable than doing it yourself. I don't know why but I just won't go down on people. I've heard it really isn't that bad but I just can't bring myself to do it. So we finished without actually 'finishing' if you know what I mean and we just started to cuddle with me being the big spoon. Naked cuddling couldn't possibly lead to good things. Some pelvic thrusting began and next thing you know it was in. We. Were. Doing. It. It was very weird at first. Not at all what I was expecting. I was expecting some instant pleasure and not so much of some weird pressure. I didn't even realize it was in at first. But the whole time I couldn't help but think, "I think we're doing it. Are we doing it? It might be in. I think it's in! What are we doing?" We switched positions and things got a little better. Had we some lube I'm sure it would have been absolutely amazing! But the pleasure mixed with chaffing just didn't feel too nice. He then all of a sudden felt really bad so we stopped much to my dismay. It's fine though. We talked and I found out some very interesting information.
1. He thinks I'm a good kisser which is a major yay. It must be true because he's not the first who has told me. 2. It's not very attractive to discuss my list of boys I've been with. Surprisingly many people think I'm some innocent boy who is inexperienced and they find that more attractive. 3. Apparently all of Russell knew about my blog, at least the gays anyways. This is the reason it is now private and if you're reading it now it means I like you very very much and that you weren't lazy enough to blow off signing into Google. I might have learned more but I really don't remember so therefore I can't possibly care.
Last Home Meet
So, tonight was the last home meet for the Georgia Gym Dogs! It was a pretty great meet. We won (of course) but not without some difficulty. Things started out rather rough for the girls but we ended up getting two 10s!!! It was pretty amazing. Afterwards, we all went to Choo Choos and had a marvelous time :)
Caleb and I then got ready to go to some drag show, which was lame, with his boyfriend, Chris Stokes, Dustin B and his boyfriend. Absolutely not fun. I was throwing up Cobra Ones all night! Carrie and Michelle finally arrived downtown and I met them at Buddha Bar. It was pretty fun. I had never been before and it was fairly interesting. Then Carrie and I just felt the uncontrollable urge to dance so we left and went to Level 131. I just so happened to get in for free because I'm one sly guy :) Saw a ton of my Myers friends there which was great. We didn't leave until it closed which was rather awkward. Staying until a club closes is just weird. And now I'm back in my room, bored, about to go to Ryan G's room. :D
Caleb and I then got ready to go to some drag show, which was lame, with his boyfriend, Chris Stokes, Dustin B and his boyfriend. Absolutely not fun. I was throwing up Cobra Ones all night! Carrie and Michelle finally arrived downtown and I met them at Buddha Bar. It was pretty fun. I had never been before and it was fairly interesting. Then Carrie and I just felt the uncontrollable urge to dance so we left and went to Level 131. I just so happened to get in for free because I'm one sly guy :) Saw a ton of my Myers friends there which was great. We didn't leave until it closed which was rather awkward. Staying until a club closes is just weird. And now I'm back in my room, bored, about to go to Ryan G's room. :D
Friday, March 21, 2008
A Trip to Kroger
Well, yesterday wasn't too interesting but I did meet someone new, Jonathan C. I met him through my friend Josh would could be a good or not so good thing. I keep telling myself and my friends that if I date someone I would want to meet them outside of the internet, preferably through a mutual friend. He was pretty cute and funny. I suppose he has some interest in me as well because he did send me a message last night wanting me to nap at his place because he met me while I was napping at Josh's but he seems a little forward and to just possibly want a hook-up. He did want to have a three way cuddle fest with me and Josh last night. But I don't know. It's still a toss up.
Oh yeah. So I stayed the night with Josh last night. I had to wait for Dustin W. to leave, who btw is the incarnation of all that is evil. Then Josh and I hung out for a bit until his roommate called wanting to go to Snelling. I didn't want to go at first and Josh had homework but it turned out to be quite a night. Basically, sitting at our table, you were either drunk, high or gay. Having 7 there, it turned into quite the little party. Afterwards, we went back to Josh's casa and hung out some more while he attempted to do homework. And then... dun dun dun... Jonathan came over. He claims it was to help Josh with homework but we all know what his true intentions were. Before he left he asked to cuddle with Josh and so they did while I tried to sleep. They remarked on how lonely I looked but I was honestly okay with not being cuddled with at 3 45 in the morning since I had to be up at 8. Jonathan left at 4 and then finally one was able to sleep. Yay for running on 4 hours of sleep and having not napped once this week.
Oh yeah. So I stayed the night with Josh last night. I had to wait for Dustin W. to leave, who btw is the incarnation of all that is evil. Then Josh and I hung out for a bit until his roommate called wanting to go to Snelling. I didn't want to go at first and Josh had homework but it turned out to be quite a night. Basically, sitting at our table, you were either drunk, high or gay. Having 7 there, it turned into quite the little party. Afterwards, we went back to Josh's casa and hung out some more while he attempted to do homework. And then... dun dun dun... Jonathan came over. He claims it was to help Josh with homework but we all know what his true intentions were. Before he left he asked to cuddle with Josh and so they did while I tried to sleep. They remarked on how lonely I looked but I was honestly okay with not being cuddled with at 3 45 in the morning since I had to be up at 8. Jonathan left at 4 and then finally one was able to sleep. Yay for running on 4 hours of sleep and having not napped once this week.
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
Still Creepy
Let me just start by mentioning that the Ryan I've been hanging out with recently is definitely not the same Ryan I had issues with earlier. That was Ryan F. Now it's Ryan G. Now that the confusion is cleared up, let me continue on to my day.
Nothing happened. I guess I feel as if the only things that are interesting or worth writing about in my day are guy struggles. Jen, Chelsea and I did talk about relationships and I'm a little more insightful now. :) Other than that I went to two blue card events today, didn't do laundry, didn't study, ate dinner with a bunch of friends (more so than usual) and kind of stalked two targets. I'm so close to discovering Target 1's identity! I really am a creeper. I probably have some psychological problem.
Nothing happened. I guess I feel as if the only things that are interesting or worth writing about in my day are guy struggles. Jen, Chelsea and I did talk about relationships and I'm a little more insightful now. :) Other than that I went to two blue card events today, didn't do laundry, didn't study, ate dinner with a bunch of friends (more so than usual) and kind of stalked two targets. I'm so close to discovering Target 1's identity! I really am a creeper. I probably have some psychological problem.
Tuesday, March 18, 2008
Soap Opera
Apparently Ryan G. likes me more than I had originally anticipated. He texted me today talking about last night. I saw him at dinner again and he winked at me. I jokingly made a disgusted face and then laughed. He laughed as well so I thought he got it. Evidently not. He texted me again an hour later talking about how awkward dinner was and how I made him feel bad... He. Has. A. Boyfriend. The end.
I went to Josh's house to 'study' but I conveniently didn't have the book I needed so I couldn't study. That's the excuse I'm using now. I really didn't want to study. So I just played video games. Old video games are either really hard and stupid or just too easy and stupid. Either way they're pretty stupid. I beat one in about 30 minutes and couldn't get off the second stage in about 3 others. Grr. It doesn't matter. I still kicked ass at Diddy Kong Racing. Mostly.
Found out today, rather abruptly I might add, that Dyllan has practically sold his body to the internet, more specifically, the art of webcamming. And of course when he texted me asking me if I was okay with it I subtly said no and added that I couldn't do anything about it. And, being so easy, when he asked if I still wanted to go on a date with him, I said yes. He called me beautiful though. What was I supposed to do?
I'm starting to realize my life is a gay soap opera.
I went to Josh's house to 'study' but I conveniently didn't have the book I needed so I couldn't study. That's the excuse I'm using now. I really didn't want to study. So I just played video games. Old video games are either really hard and stupid or just too easy and stupid. Either way they're pretty stupid. I beat one in about 30 minutes and couldn't get off the second stage in about 3 others. Grr. It doesn't matter. I still kicked ass at Diddy Kong Racing. Mostly.
Found out today, rather abruptly I might add, that Dyllan has practically sold his body to the internet, more specifically, the art of webcamming. And of course when he texted me asking me if I was okay with it I subtly said no and added that I couldn't do anything about it. And, being so easy, when he asked if I still wanted to go on a date with him, I said yes. He called me beautiful though. What was I supposed to do?
I'm starting to realize my life is a gay soap opera.
Little Homewrecker
Classes started yesterday. I think I forgot to mention that while at Josh's casa I fell down his stairs and hurt my bum. Well, yesterday I fell up some stairs on the way to class and hurt my hand. I suck at walking :(
Justin Smith of UGA, who has a boyfriend, texted me yesterday wanted to basically have a mini party with just the two of us and get drunk. And I'm sure we can all guess what would have happened had he been able to. He would have cheated on his boyfriend again. That's what would have happened.
I hadn't seen Ryan Gray in quite some time, with Spring Break and everything, and so I Facebooked him saying so. So, some friends and I go to Snelling later to eat dinner and who should be there, besides everyone else I know, but Ryan. So we both remark on the little coincidence and brush it aside. After dance and a second dinner, Kelley came over and we watched Dark Passage, a 40's movie. It was pretty good but IMDB kind of lied to me about the synopsis and gave me false hopes. All through the movie Ryan and I were pseudo-suggestively texting each other and after the movie we decided to hang out. So I go to his place and we listen to music for a while then we start watching TV. Then, we start playing footsies. Oh yeah. He has a boyfriend as well. After quite some time, we switch positions on the futon to ones that are more comfortable to sleep in. Footsies continue and then he starts to scratch my back. But nothing escalates past that because I believe we both know that even if little things like that happen, bigger things won't happen. Hard to explain but basically things will more than likely not happen between us. I stayed the night and have just recently returned back to my room.
I knew things would get more interesting once school started back.
Justin Smith of UGA, who has a boyfriend, texted me yesterday wanted to basically have a mini party with just the two of us and get drunk. And I'm sure we can all guess what would have happened had he been able to. He would have cheated on his boyfriend again. That's what would have happened.
I hadn't seen Ryan Gray in quite some time, with Spring Break and everything, and so I Facebooked him saying so. So, some friends and I go to Snelling later to eat dinner and who should be there, besides everyone else I know, but Ryan. So we both remark on the little coincidence and brush it aside. After dance and a second dinner, Kelley came over and we watched Dark Passage, a 40's movie. It was pretty good but IMDB kind of lied to me about the synopsis and gave me false hopes. All through the movie Ryan and I were pseudo-suggestively texting each other and after the movie we decided to hang out. So I go to his place and we listen to music for a while then we start watching TV. Then, we start playing footsies. Oh yeah. He has a boyfriend as well. After quite some time, we switch positions on the futon to ones that are more comfortable to sleep in. Footsies continue and then he starts to scratch my back. But nothing escalates past that because I believe we both know that even if little things like that happen, bigger things won't happen. Hard to explain but basically things will more than likely not happen between us. I stayed the night and have just recently returned back to my room.
I knew things would get more interesting once school started back.
Sunday, March 16, 2008
Spring Break Day 9 - Athens - Final Day
Today was the last day of Spring Break. As with the rest of my Spring Break -- nothing really happened. Drove back to Athens which was a major plus plus. Unpacked (well, mostly) and ate with BeMack sans Michelle who wasn't back yet. It was really great to get to finally see everyone again and to share all of our wonderful stories. I really did miss them. For some reason, I thought over the course of 9 days that I had some how changed and that everyone else did as well. I'm glad to see we're all still the same :)
After dinner, I went to Josh's house to hang out with him. Then, we went to Jason's house so Jason could eat. Ended up playing Super Smash Bros. Brawl. It was fun but I wasn't very good at it. Mind you it was my first time and I wasn't really trying. Josh and I then went back to his place and started romping around. It sounds dirty. And it would have been were we both naked, without the covers and it a certain position. But we weren't. Then he receives the dreaded IM from Dustin and that pretty much takes up the rest of the night. Although he was chatting with Geremy, who seems super cool, and Ben, who introduced me to a new song that I've already downloaded. But, alas, it got very late and I to depart eventually. Good-bye SB08. I probably won't miss you.
After dinner, I went to Josh's house to hang out with him. Then, we went to Jason's house so Jason could eat. Ended up playing Super Smash Bros. Brawl. It was fun but I wasn't very good at it. Mind you it was my first time and I wasn't really trying. Josh and I then went back to his place and started romping around. It sounds dirty. And it would have been were we both naked, without the covers and it a certain position. But we weren't. Then he receives the dreaded IM from Dustin and that pretty much takes up the rest of the night. Although he was chatting with Geremy, who seems super cool, and Ben, who introduced me to a new song that I've already downloaded. But, alas, it got very late and I to depart eventually. Good-bye SB08. I probably won't miss you.
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